he wakes up after an hour of sleep to the screams of something else he didnt do he cant sleep at night because memories are so fresh in his mind of a life destroyed by abandonment and drugs but the drugs are a crutch now without them you feel worse more hopeless then before and it seems like suicide is a viable option..maybe it is..everyone you talk to thinks you want attention because they are to blind or to stupid to see the pain really felt..he feels lost in the world and he has given up hope
been awhile havent been here for about a year…tryed counseling and antidepressants shit dousent work dont ever belive that fucking joke its just money for them all you have in this world is yourself everything good goes away everything…nothing is constant and i cant handle that i need a constant someone something anything idk just i cant get thoughts out of my head everyday is living hell everything is a constant reminder of the hellish life ive lived really contimplateing suicide again im not strong enough for this shit anymore all i do id down drugs as a cruthc and it dousent work anymore i just […]
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im droping everything im getting blamed for everything in this househole because of me smokeing pot and getting into counseling and all this shit the money issues aremy fault im dropping out of school and moveing out i cant take the shit here anymoreim just a fucking worthless piece of shit to everyone anyway maybe i should just fucking kill myself already
someone very close to me decided to tell the school i had a hitlist (which i didnt have) they found the pot i bought instead sent me to counseler after sduspending me and pressign charges so i decided to answer eveything truthfully and i showed my cuts and burns and they are now makeing me do counseling after trying to put me in a psych ward and i honestly cant take shit anymore they treat me like im some kind of fucking freak in a circus i want out i just cant fucking do this shit anymore
i wlak through everyday in an utter state of depression i look at everything negativley and the only time im ever in a semi content state is when im not sober i hate being sober because when im sober i have to think about shit i jsut hate it..i guess im just gonna go to bed i hope i dont wake up
someone whos not a complete and uter asshoole who migth understnad what im going througha dn might understand and be able to consule me and let me do the same to them if they need help i guess i jsut wnat that one but i dooublt ile ever get it fuck this life….i hate nights again.. the blakcnes and utter loneliness brings back evertyhing and it keeps me from sleeping i fcuking hate it
wow the nigth the dead silence except the rain beating the windows in the blackness and i cnat sleep and all i do is dwell on the past and then i get up and cut myself take some nightquill try to sleep and stiull cna its bullshit i just want to fucking die and i dont have the balls enough to kill myself but dman if i dont think aobut it everyday well ig euss ile be tired tomorrow fuck this life
well i guess i should post a story of my life maybe itle help get this shit off my chest well my parents always fought and shit and it turned into abouse and shit because my dad was an alcoholic and hed end out beating the shit out of all of us and then nice as hell when he wasent drunk wel about 5th grade it hit a peak and my mom left him hooked up with some guy who beat me jsut because he had a bad day and mom found out and left him then dad came back and he was better (suposedly) […]
so mothers abondoned me 2 times now dads dead grandparents treat em liek shti no fmaily that cares only like 2 close friends and what do i really have i shold jsut end it maybe i am a slefish fuck but i dont care anymore i cnat take this life ive done everything i wana o and lfie is miserable and i hate it so i should end it hell it would probaly help someone elses life
its been 2 mothes since you fucking destryed me and i walk through every fucking day now more depressed then i was before i have to sit beside you in first period and hear you tlak ab out fucking your new boyfriedn after a week of us breaking up wow yea 2 years didnt mean shit to you but it mean everything to me all the shit ive already been throught he abandonment and the deaths not haveing fucking parents or anyone that gives a shit you get close to em and fuck me over and now im posting this sad ass shit on this […]