I can’t cut like I use to, so I find other ways to feed my addiction. Tonight my dog head butted me and I used it to my advantage by being able to cause glorious pain to myself. This is peaceful beauty. 
There is just something about causing pain to oneself that is so beautiful. Cutting has always been my out. But it’s been taken away from me in a difficult way.Â
Two years ago my life was changed forever. The person I thought was everything to me tore my heart out and never gave me a reason behind it all. Â We had been best friends for 7 years and together for 4 years. We were always together for everything. After he refused to have anything to do with me, I decided to take things into my own hands. I was living on my friends couch because being […]
At 24 years old, you’d think things would start to get easier. My life is “on track”. I followed all the rules…I graduated high school, I graduated college, I go a job in my career, I’ve found the guy for me, but is that it? Do I continue down this road that has already been paved for me? Do I continue to smile when my tears are as beautiful as the color of the crimson red that falls from my wrists? I don’t understand why I feel the way I do when I’ve “got it all”. It’s not fair for me to feel this way […]