I’m finally at peace. Please don’t be mad. I know you will miss me, but take comfort in the fact that I don’t have to be miserable anymore.
I know “things will get better”. But things always go back to being unbearable. Even when I was doing good I always had the fear of it going bad. The worst always comes when things were going good and the rest is just difficult. 80% bad versus 20% good is just not worth it.
I didn’t do this out of distress or even depression. I finally feel calm and at peace. I’ve never had that fight for life feeling. […]