I wish I could redo (or undo) my entire life.  Like guhhhhhh’s post above, I have tried to reinvent myself, tried several completely different jobs, moved countless times, met tons of new people,  and yet somehow the cloud of darkness and pain follows me wherever I go.  So I guess it’s just me then.  I suppose I am the problem.  Perhaps as long as I exist, I shall always be in misery… :/
I never asked to be born. Â I never asked to be abused and treated lower than dirt. Â I never asked much of the world other than to be loved and to be treated like a human being. Â Am I not meant to have a decent life? Â A life that has happiness instead of endless pain and torment? Â The abuse is over, yet the scars forever stain my life. Â I would move on, but fate somehow has a way of piling endless misery my way. Â Is life just a cruel joke?
There are so many bad things happening to me, and I am too weak to fight […]
Why is there so much pain and injustice in this world? Â Why do so many of us suffer?
I just want to have a good life and be happy for once.
Name one thing that would make you happier and would make you feel less sad or suicidal.
Just curious what other people are missing in their life.
Being poor means living in a sh*t neighborhood in a sh*t apt with super thin walls and sh*t neighbors that are psycho and drive you crazy.
Being poor means not being able to go out and do things because everything costs money.
Being poor means not having a car which means you can’t get anywhere.
So does money = happiness?  No, but but it definitely helps to alleviate a shitload of misery.
I really should get out. Â It’s such a nice day- no not sunny how most people like it, but a bit cloudy and breezy, right after a rain, which is my favorite kind of weather. Â I have been isolating myself for the past few months, going outside once every few days only for necessities like food & toilet paper and such.
I think about going out, but then I say to myself, “where do I go?” and “what will I do?” Â I can’t think of an answer so I stay inside…
Lame, yes. Â Lack a life, yes. Â Depressed, yes. Â And have no friends so nobody to do […]
What do you do when you feel like you have no way out of your hell? Â My life is miserable. Â I wish I could just off myself and end things, but then all my years of struggle and suffering would have been for nothing. Â No, I am not a young teen with a possibility of a real future. Â I am not young anymore and I am not physically healthy anymore. Â I regret that I did not do it decades ago when I was 7 and life was hell (I was abused) and really had the mind to end my life back then.
I just […]
Does anyone have so much hate against the world that you wish a great big flood or some kind of natural disaster to just wipe off all humans from the face of the Earth?
Yup, that’s my life.
And let’s not forget miserable.
🙁
I haven’t left my apt in days, not since last Sunday. Â I’ve run out of real food and have been subsisting on potato chips and other really bad junky food. Â :/ Â Feel such crap about my life and me being depressed and not getting out isn’t helping. Â I guess I’m too chicken to want to face the world. Â So I hide in my little broken world. Â Don’t want to see normal functioning people out and about, especially those annoyingly happy people. Â Been sleeping during the day and awake all night. I’m barely functioning.
I’m tired of life… Â 🙁
If I have good qualities, then how come no one wants to be my friend? Â :'(
I feel like I’m a failure. Â My life is a complete mess in every way. Â I have no friends. Â I don’t have family. Â I don’t have a job and therefore have no money. Â I have health problems and most certainly have loads mental issues dealing with life (loneliness, depression, jaded about life, lack of motivation, etc etc).
My life is such a mess.  And I don’t believe in myself anymore.  I don’t believe in myself in large because I don’t have a reason to go on.  And also because  I feel like my life is a series of mistakes, not just mistakes but mistakes that alter […]
I know we shouldn’t go around feeling like our life is a failure, or that we are a failure. Â And I never felt that way until these last couple of years where I’ve been pretty useless, I suppose that’s the word. Â I got badly injured 5 years ago and haven’t been able to accomplish anything; even getting out of my house to get to the store to feed myself when I can do it is like the biggest victory I can muster up. Â I guess I feel so hopeless and so futile and like a complete failure because I don’t quite see myself improving physically, […]
What do you when your life sucks and you’re too poor and  physically sick and weak to do anything about it?
I feel so stuck. Â And I feel like what the hell is the point in my living? Â I wish I was suicidal so I could actually do the damn deed, but I’m not suicidal as much as I’m sick, tired, hate my life, and don’t forsee it changing for the better. Â I have health issues so it’s not like my life can easily get better like other people can, so please no “everything will get better” schpeel.
Sigh.
I was browsing suicide songs on youtube a few hours ago and I stumbled upon Amanda Todd’s video.  She was stalked by a child predator, was bullied, and ultimately killed herself.  It is so heartbreaking.  It upsets me even more the responses people have posted, such heartless bastards, saying she was a whore and that she deserved it.  She was TWELVE when she was cajoled into flash her boob by an online sex predator.  Yes, she made a mistake.  But she was 12.  The online comments attacking her are so awful.
My life and my body are broken. Â My health is bad and I have no one to help me. Â I can’t deal with life anymore. Â I am having a hard time taking care of myself, just the basics. Â And I have no one. Â I have nothing except pain and misery.
I really can’t take it anymore. Â There is no escape from my misery except death. Â I feel cheated out of life. Â I haven’t had a fair chance at life and now my body is dying. Â And I’m all alone. Â If I die, nobody in my life would give a damn.
I’m really tired of this bullshit called […]
Why do so many bad things have to happen to me? Â Just how much more am I expected to handle? Â It’s not just one thing or ten things; it’s been so much more than that. Â Part by part, my body is being destroyed. Â I go to different practioners for help but they only wind up making me worse and have given me MORE health problems that I didn’t initially have. Â I am 33 but have health problems of a 73 year old. Â I am just fucked.
I now have problems with my both my legs, in addition to my original problems with my lungs, my heart, […]
Bah!
I hate this world. Â And I hate all the shitty people in it. Â I wish they’d all have a heart attack and just drop dead. Â The world would be better off without them. Â I wish I had some magical power like in the movies to make them suffer like they do unto others.
Yes I am spewing anger, but I have lots to be angry about. Â I hate all the horrible things that go on in the world and all the assholes getting away with it. Â It just seems like the bad people get rewarded and the nice people suffer at their hands.