You and I where a one. Than , Like a stupid dumb ass, I dumped you. But why? I was so in love! I discovered. I broke up with you because stuff at home where bad, and things at school, and other people where involved. When you and I broke up, I cried, Well not really but weeks later I did. Who would of know. Who would of known months later, I could still love you . Who would of known you would of moved on and still been friends with me. But then , I couldn’t take it. I HAD to get out of […]
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When you are hurt, there is nothing to do , because no one is every there. I struggle with the constant reminder of getting bullied and my parents not understanding. all they say is “Ignore them , they will go away.” Its not easy. i have been ignoring, and if anything, it makes them stronger. I want to fight back but the fear of getting hurt once again stops me. I sit at home and cry every night because of my parents and or school. Then i think, There is nothing that can help. Not crying at least. I start to think, Cutting is my […]
So, I am going back to the hospital. I called myself because if i don’t I will end up doing something stupid. And My STUPID guidance councilor told me he was going to call to see if i can’t go. He said I don’t need to. He said HE needs to call if I need to go. HOW WOULD HE KNOW! HE IS NOT ME! HE DOESN’T KNOW IF I NEED TO OR NOT! This is my life. He does NOT know how bad I need this for myself. He his going to make me have a panic attach in his office. ONE AGAIN! The […]
So, life. What can I say… Your difficult sometimes. You make me wonder. You make me cry. You make me laugh. You let me love. Then you let me get rid of the only love I have. Had. But, what can I say? Its life. you can’t Alway never get what you want. No matter what you do. Thats just how life works. You take something ( Laughter, happiness, love, etc.) and you get worse ( Sadness, Madness, Hatred, Etc.) . No matter how hard you try, it is impossible to get away from those things. You can just wish for them […]
Its been so long. Its been so hard. I have been trying to hid what happened to everyone. It has worked. 5 years has pasted. Why do you have to return. I was done with you. You hurt me. You where my COUSIN . How could you do this. You touched me and made me touch you. Because of you, I am scared. Scared to call help. That’s why its happened 5 more times. With different people each. Now your back in my life. I don’t want you here. I want to die. I really don’t want memories coming back. They have finally left. Don’t […]
I can’t help but feel the pain that others cause. They do this just to hurt me. It works. I was sexually molested in school. I told the school, but they never did anything. They said they would. I try so hard to do what is right, but I fail. I cry every night because I am bullied. I draw, sing, do anything to get my head away from the fear of killing myself tonight. I don’t know what to do
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