I write this story for others.

So, life. What can I say… Your difficult sometimes. You make me wonder. You make me cry. You make me laugh. You let me love. Then you let me get rid of the only love I have. Had. But, what can I say? Its life. you can’t Alway never get what you want. No matter what you do. Thats just how life works. You take something ( Laughter, happiness, love, etc.) and you get worse ( Sadness, Madness, Hatred, Etc.) . No matter how hard you try, it is impossible to get away from those things. You can just wish for them to go away. Sometimes, they do. Other times, you have to deal with it. I know, it sucks.

People just are out to get others. People say stuff about gays, “Emos” , Skaters, bikers, long haired boys, Make-up wearing boys, Lesbian girls, guy looking girls, Etc. I wonder why. To me, when someone is made fun of, it is not a joke. I’ve been threw a lot. Somethings people don’t believe, but it is all true. I’ve had ups and downs. People making fun of me, people making fun of who/what I am, people taking advantage of me, but I don’t have the courage to stop them.

I wondered for awhile, was it to make them feel better about themselves? To some it is, to many its not. To a lot of people, they like the attention they get from others while people stare. They like the look on peoples face. They like feeling over powered. I wonder, for what reason. Why is that so good. Why isn’t putting a smile on someones face, as important as making them regret living some days.

I hate reading and listening about children my age killing themselves just because of what others say/do. It hurts me to see them cry. To hear about them dying. There was a teenage boy ,17, that committed suicide about 1 year ago. The sad thing is he did this on live video. People actually egged him on to kill himself . He was having problems because his girlfriend broke up with him. He was also getting made fun of at school for “looking” gay. There is NO WAY anyone can “look” gay. It bothers me that over 40 people where watching, and not ONE person stopped him. Then when he died, everyone left the chat.

People are just horrible sometimes. I would like to ask, why would you egg someone on to do something like that. It pains me to ask. I just wish people will be considerate to someone other than THEMSELVES! Sometimes, I just wish I can be there for the ones that are NOT lucky enough to have real friends. Because they should know someones should be there. I NEVER had real friend. And honestly, I am not sure if I ever will. Good people now a day are hard to find. I have tried,but found nothing. And why? Because people ( EVERYONE even me) follow what people say.

We can say we lead ourselves, but honestly we are lead by others. Those others lead by many. Those many lead by the world. No one is truly themselves. We have a bit of everyone in us. This is because we try to fit in, or we try to stand out. Standing out is a brilliant thing, but if you think about it why do you want to. Is someone that you saw the way you want to be? But for those who do stand out, are in to get bullied.

To get picked on. Hurt. None of us want this, but we get it. I for one want to be myself and like others. I try so hard to find friends, to like everyone, but it doesn’t work. I get made fun of, laughed at, hurt. I have tried to get away from all of this, but it is everywhere. No matter where you go, it will always be the same.

There are people out there who get hurt so bad, the only thing to do for them is to be alone. Alone because they think everyones out to get them. No one wants to know them, thats what they think. Be with them . They hid behind the shadows and try to blend in. Blend in so no one can see them. They are hurting. Some tried to talk to someone before they got like this, but they don’t listen.