A while back my aunt took me to a therapist, for my depression.She then took me to a lady who prescribed medication!God, I was so freaking mad, still am a bit peeved.Since hen my depression and anorexia have only gotten worse,I have stated previously that nothing will help but she didn’t listen and now its progressed to a stage where I’m slowly turning into a vegetable (medical term).Also you might not think this but I’m 13 and my life has completely fallen to pieces.If you want to know the full story then look at my other posts but even then you wont know the full […]
As soon as I am old enough I am going to admit myself into a mental institution so I don’t do anything that will make me even more of a disappointment to others. I have accepted that everyone hates me and my aunt is too kind to throw me out herself. I even accept that secretly my dad probably drank himself to death because he hated me and couldn’t stand me. I know everyone loves my sister and brothers more. I also know that if/when I kill myself noone will care or be sad. This is probably my last entry so for everyone that hates […]
This is the final test of…. well I don’t really know.I am going back to the place where it all began.where it began and ended. I don’t know if I can take it without breaking down. to somepeople on here we sound happy in comments when we really are dying inside. for me music kinda helps sad or not. I personally like arms of an angel by Sarah mchlaughlan and emotionless by good Charlotte. but I am still partly dead inside.I said before I hated my dad. but honestly id rather feel.sadness/depression rather than hatred.
this is my second post.this time I’m on the edge and the voices in my head are getting harder to resist.”jump jump it wont hurt and all the pain, fear, darkness will all go away just end it now “. little bastards. sorry for the language. I’m going to break soon and nobody can help me. there are 2reasons I haven’t ended it right now.1 my mom. and2 in heaven or hell wherever I go my dad will be waiting for me and if you read my first post then you will understand why.
I just cant take it anymore.My dad was an alcoholic and died from it about a year and a half ago.Please don’t ask why but I cant see my mom until I am 18.My friends don’t know anything but if I told them they might laugh or even worse.Only 1 person knows and I begin to regret that.I consider suicide more and more often.Most nights I cry myself to sleep.But noone not even family knows what I am going :through because if I told them they would send me to a therapist and that wouldn’t help me.Sometimes I think was I put on this earth […]