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CatchTh3Bus

My love/goodbye letter

by CatchTh3Bus 3/26/2016

written by CatchTh3Bus

Dear Anon( u kno who u are),

I hope you still get a spark in your eye when you think of me. I’ve went through all my journals and there was a lot of things that I wasn’t proud of writing so I ripped out the entries I’d written that were penned in anger and I’m summing up the rest here. The things that still stick in my mind had the longest entries. Like the time we first met and the time we first made love; those two moments bring tears to my eyes and make me forget any bad stuff for awhile. I also have […]

3/26/2016 1 comment

Avatars?!

by CatchTh3Bus 3/22/2016

written by CatchTh3Bus

Is it true you have to join wordpress to change your avatar on here?! It said to go to gravater to change it but then it wants me to make a wordpress page and I only want a different avatar on this site. Does anyone know if you have to sign up for wordpress or if there’s a different way to do it?

Hope every1 has a day 🙂

3/22/2016 4 comments

Waiting @ the stop, reminiscing

by CatchTh3Bus 3/21/2016

written by CatchTh3Bus

The little one I used to be,
Abandoned and replaced by,
a ghost in purgatory, a shadow crawling along decaying masonry in the dire dusk
I’ve been in this world long enough,
a refusal of existence comprised of sorrow with beauty hinted at but never possessed
The circus calls out to me and revelations of younger years ferment in the circuitry
Impossible to leave in this condition,
I’m still too thirsty, too weary, too broken
Numb to others until I become Aurora, glistening and carefree,
then the final act to beckon me into the abyss,

Exciting and disorienting,
The grim reaper stamps my ticket behind cold […]

3/21/2016 2 comments

Spring cleaning…

by CatchTh3Bus 3/19/2016

written by CatchTh3Bus

So I’ve been absent from this site for awhile. I’ve been busy clearing out my shit and NO WAY IN HELL would I have imagined what a heap of junk I’ve accumulated; I actually wish I had a huge pit of fire to throw it all into lol..I know this is something I have to do or I’ll feel like I’ve left a mess behind and I believe that would fuk me over if there is an afterlife..I’m just covering all my angles here. ITS STRESSFUL as for some reason I still have attachments to some of the junk but at the same time I’m […]

3/19/2016 0 comment

Suicidal music appreciation?

by CatchTh3Bus 2/29/2016

written by CatchTh3Bus

Has anyone else found some heightened musical appreciation when they became suicidal? I’ve found any music that I once liked or had meaning before I became this way now has heightened meaning or an underlying euphoric energy as I go through my day readying myself for the act and closing up shop! It’s really quite odd but an unexpected bonus to becoming suicidal in the first place. It makes the final days much more meaningful and can distract me from the depressive thoughts that come along with knowing I’ll be ending it all in good time.

2/29/2016 9 comments

Justreggy!

by CatchTh3Bus 2/27/2016

written by CatchTh3Bus

Took me awhile for life to kick me down but the short end is I have nobody to talk to about suicide without getting constantly locked away and re-traumatized and treated like a caged animal. I had 1 partial suspension trial and got caught and ever since then I’m being constantly harassed and the police also took away all my completely legal RC powder due to a person calling them on me after I said some things about the forbidden talk about choosing when to die. This happened to me when I was a teen when I had some foxy methoxy, my rents called the […]

2/27/2016 3 comments