So I’ve been absent from this site for awhile. I’ve been busy clearing out my shit and NO WAY IN HELL would I have imagined what a heap of junk I’ve accumulated; I actually wish I had a huge pit of fire to throw it all into lol..I know this is something I have to do or I’ll feel like I’ve left a mess behind and I believe that would fuk me over if there is an afterlife..I’m just covering all my angles here. ITS STRESSFUL as for some reason I still have attachments to some of the junk but at the same time I’m closing up shop and it makes me happy 🙂
I have some good medical marijuana that’s helping lower my inhibitions a bit and some chill pills incase I have a panic attack along the way and my brain tries to stop me from getting rid of all my worldly possessions. It’s soo stupid as if I’m going to care what color of shirt I like or what flavour of pop or what jewellery I wear when I’m gone, this process should be going a lot quicker/smoother. I guess I’ve moved a lot in my life and this is like the millionth time I’ve packed and moved everything around. My appetite is shit ATM too so I have limited energy stores which doesn’t help at all 🙁
Just leaving this here cus’ I needed 2 vent and I don’t have anyone irl I can talk to without being thrown in an ambulance and hauled away. I also have terrible social anxiety around everything social including posting online so if I don’t reply to comments or in other posts much it’s because my brain is playing hide and go seek and I won’t be able to interact for random periods of time. Sometimes I push myself to reply and feel worse thinking I said something stupid or rude so there’s that also lol
Hope you all have a gr8 afternoon!!