Just feeling very broken. I just had a good weekend around friends, but I feel like all of the emotional energy may have triggered something sad or dark. Idk if it happens that way for others? I’m trying but I’ve already cried a few times today.
I’m having a bad day. There is a lot of pressure to perform. I’m not handling it well for some emotional reason to or another. Just tell me you hear me.
Have you ever f*cked up a situation or friendship that you honestly believed was unf*ckable? That you believed was foolproof, with no f*ckabilty ratio?
I did that yesterday..and it sucks.
I just thought I could open up more, to someone I have been trying to open up to for a few years now. It is not a relationship, but it was helping me get through some things. I considered him to be a friend. And now he sees me as a crazy, depressed, hopeless loon; so I lost another friend.
Here’s to another birthday knowing that I should just keep my f*cking mouth shut when it comes […]
I just want to say I will keep my posts to a limit. I think stuff going on with me is minimal, compared to what I have read. Out of respect for everyone, I’ve decided to leave space for the important stuff. But I am reading and I’ll comment if there is something I feel compelled to say. I wish better days and nights for all of you.
An internet search on the phrase, “I’m so stupid”, landed me here tonight.
I’m not sure if its fate or not; but it’s ironic that I’m here, as I’ve been having somewhat of a breakdown since yesterday.
I used to have suicidal thoughts when I was much younger, but I could never muster up the courage to act on them. I wanted to believe I’d outgrown them, even though the feelings would creep in and out of my mind every once in a while. But I was in control, or so I believed. I’d have a few crying fits here and there, but I’d get over the […]