Its been some time since I’ve posted anything here.
I keep trying to make some type of progress in life but I can’t seem to get it in track. It real seems like I can’t do ANYTHING right!
Mistake after mistake, mistake after mistake & not to mention Failure after Failure.
I’m currently renting a room from a friend but I want to move out of there so I can commit suicide in a less crowded area, hope my own place and on my terms.
I can’t do ANYTHING right.
What’s the point
I’m scared…..what if I never get my life together.
You try, try, try & try again some more but I feel like am heading nowhere fast….. I feel like I’ve been running for years on this rat race & still there’s NO finish line…quiting looks so attractive for theses last years…..not sure y am writing or is still here
The reasons why I failed as a “man”(and I use that word loosely)?
In short:
too numerous character faults, too many past regrets & way too much poor thoughts about my future to mention. I hate myself so. I hate the man in the mirror.. I just wanted to say that. I wonder what life after death would be like for me since I think its different for everyone. I just wanted to say that
When to Say When?
I been thinking……. when is there ever a time in a person’s life that they should say fuck it & give up on life & end it?
Is there ever a time to say: I’ve tried but it’s now time to stop feeling lonely, being rejected, stop taking one steps forward and two step back in everything in life and just pull the trigger.
I think I’m just not built for life ups & downs. Seriously
any suggestion?
Imaginary friends for treating loneliness = Unhealthy?
I HAVE AN IMAGINARY FRIEND FOR THE PAST FEW YEARS THAT HAS BEEN MY CONSTANT COMPANION. MY QUESTION IS, DOES HAVING A IMAGINARY FRIEND AS AN ADULT IS A GOOD MEANS TO COMBATE & FILL THE VOID OF LONELINESS SINCE REAL, PHYSICAL, IN PERSON HUMAN INTERACTIONS (FRIENDS) ARE VERY HARD TO COME BY FOR ME???
Today I was on the verge of suicide. Today I saw a bird that was on the fence surrounding my home and I saw the very same tree that has been in front of my house for years in a different light while going through this crisis today. These things might sound very much trivial and insignificant but I mention these things because when one (anyone) was or is about to kill themselves or is near to death, life little things becomes much more vivid. The sky and even the air might feel different.
Why is there this prevailing norm that the act of suicide […]
………..i hate the person in the mirror
What’s awaits me once I commit suicide?? Does anyone know for sure? Heaven or Hell or a void??
What are the Pros & Cons to suicide in your opinion? Anyone??????
My suicide story isn’t base on a single dramatic occurrence or a series of bad hands dealt to me by life, like so many have posted concerning their suicide stories. Like many (if not all) here I have been dealing with deep depression, manic mood swings, and suicidal thoughts on a daily basis, that at times feels all consuming. Again, my path to suicide wasn’t due to a traumatic event but rather a fucking series of mundane, minutiae life events that have led me to deciding to off myself at the end of lackluster, Loserville 25 year bullshit life. All my life I haven’t amounted […]