How can I produce carbon monoxide without breathing in the fumes of the formic acid (when it’s mixing with sulfuric acid). I couldn’t stand the burning smell and got out of the car. This is so frustrating I want to die so badly. Should I mix the chemicals together in a closed container and then wait a few minutes before letting lose the CO?
I need to kill myself ASAP. I don’t know if I should do it tonight, tomorrow morning at 5 am or sometime after Christmas like on the 26th or something. We are having guest come tonight so I was thinking if I died, they could distract my mom for being upset (or I could ruin Christmas). All I know is I can’t wait because I want my friends to have as much time as possible to recover before the new semester starts and I never intended on celebrating Christmas. My carbon monoxide machine isn’t 100% complete yet and I haven’t done any test runs (not […]
If you told me 2 years ago that I would be taking Organic Chemistry I would laugh at your face (because I barely got an A in PreAP Chemistry) and then ask what Organic Chemistry is because I would have never heard of it before. Yet here I am, taking Organic Chemistry. I planned on killing myself in August and now I have pushed the date back to the end of my semester finals. But seriously what am I waiting for? I basically have only 2 friends and the only things I do with them is attend class together and occasionally study. Making friends is […]
I have a good life but since elementary school I was always determined to kill myself before I grew up. In September I turn 20. I still sleep with my baby blanket and have never been kissed and here I am turning 20. In May I told my parents I was planning on killing myself. Summer is almost over and my councilor is trying to make me promise to forget suicide but I can only imagine postponing it till December. I was to kill myself when the weather isn’t 100 degrees outside but at the same time I don’t want to spend 6,000 dollars going […]
“Razors pain you; Rivers are damp; Acid stain you; And drugs cause cramp. Guns aren’t lawful; Nooses give; Gas smells awful; You might as well live. “
It’s so painful to look in a mirror and see who you are, not who you want to be or can be. It’s especially painful when that mirror is not actually a mirror but your own parents complaining about who you are. No matter how much I distract myself or be in denial, I can always rely on my parents to tell me exactly what I don’t want to hear. They say their sick and tired to putting up with my personality and yet they do nothing about it. I think “well it’s my own responsibility to be pleasant and polite†but then I realize […]
I will be off to college next august and I’m debating whether or not to try out the first semester before ending my life during winter break or ending it before college starts.  This decision needs to be made soon so that I can plan my summer. Should I get a summer job in order to go on a trip or prep and plan for my end? I know it’s really up to me, but for all you non 14 year-old, experienced ladies and gentlemen I would appreciate your opinion! Should I get a taste of college? I don’t like starting things I don’t plan […]
In his later years, Winston Churchill was asked to give the commencement address at Oxford University. Following his introduction, he rose, went to the podium, and said, “Never, never, never give up.†Then he took his seat.
This was too funny not to share. Advice from the last man standing in Europe against Hitler in WW2. What a remarkable man!