If you told me 2 years ago that I would be taking Organic Chemistry I would laugh at your face (because I barely got an A in PreAP Chemistry) and then ask what Organic Chemistry is because I would have never heard of it before. Yet here I am, taking Organic Chemistry. I planned on killing myself in August and now I have pushed the date back to the end of my semester finals. But seriously what am I waiting for? I basically have only 2 friends and the only things I do with them is attend class together and occasionally study. Making friends is so hard for me and then keeping them is near impossible. Iâ€™m so tired moving heaven and earth to befriend people only for them to become strangers again.Â Â Iâ€™m lonely. Iâ€™ve been lonely all my life. I get home and Iâ€™m all alone for 5 hours at a time on a daily basis. Iâ€™ve literary been crying on and off for the past two weeks. FML December canâ€™t come soon enough.