I came to this site hoping to find a place where I could share my feelings and just have people accept it. I get that everyone wants to help but all I’ve gotten is judgmental comments. Regardless of if you’re trying to be hurtful or not, I’m in a fragile place and I don’t think this is the right site for me to be on. Maybe I’ll come back later but I can’t deal with this anymore. Thanks SP for nothing.
It’s unbelievable how easy it is to fool people. I’ve tried hard to not get fucked up when I’m feeling depressed but it’s been so bad lately I needed to do something to make me have some sort of feeling. I took a lot of cold medicine with codeine in it and they I took a lot of anxiety medicine. I also found these weird mango diet pills in my sisters room and I took a couple of those, I know they probably won’t get me high but at least I won’t feel the need to eat. It’s just crazy that no one knows how fucked up […]
I’ve had a pretty pleasant week but now I’m just run down. I’ve been thinking a lot about my future and how I have no clue what I’m doing with my life. I feel like I’ve wasted so much time doing nothing and now here I am at the end of my high school career with no job, no college acceptance, and no future plan. Sure I have dreams of being an actor and possibly doing tv shows or Broadway, but I can’t do that without going to college. I know there are plenty of people who have become successful actors without going to college […]
My grandfather is the only solid person I have left in my life. He’s old and can’t leave the house so I run his errands for him. He gave me money the other day to get us breakfast and I forgot to pick him up something else that I said I would get later. I was at a friends house that night and had almost 40 bucks in my wallet that someone stole. I just told my grandfather that my money got stolen and he said “Yeah, nice excuse. You are starting to sound like a dope addict.” LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! I […]
My mom works in hospice and deals with a lot of shit. I just found out today that she was exposed to hepatitis c. She’s getting tested for it now and she told me that the likelihood of her actually contracting it is very slim. I’m just really worried for her and I’m praying that everything is going to be okay. My mom is a strong woman and has always been there for me….I don’t think I could handle it if she got sick like that. Also, I’ve been feeling really low again. I go through these spurts of happiness and then I just get […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wAf99TlYUH8
This song is my new fighting song. Anytime I feel down, I’m listening to it. Give it a listen…it’s really good.
My life overall has just been sad. It isn’t sad all day every day, but there are always moments throughout my day when I become sad. I start thinking about how much my life has changed and how much it is going to change. I’m still fairly young and I’m actually graduating at the beginning of next month. I’ve been taking this month to say goodbye to the people that I probably won’t see again for a really long time, and I think it’s adding to the sadness. Since I’m new here I guess I’ll share part of my story; my parents are divorced, and […]
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