My entire life ive had to fight for everything, anything and for/with every1. And im just too tired to keep doing this. My life has always been a struggle. Struggle with myself, people, money and living situations. Im a cook who makes 10 an hr with no benefits and he moved me to part time hours to save even more money. Its the lowest paying cook job i ever had n it takes me almost 45min to get there. So ive been applying for other jobs n its funny how even with my numerous yrs in food service, im still having issues gettin employers to […]
Was driving home from work. Going 60mph down hwy 31 when a van pulled out in front of me. I slammed on my brakes, i flew close to the windshield as i saw my van get dangerously close to the back of their van. Turned my steering wheel right to avoid the hit and swerved into the right lane where the other cars were. I felt like my van was gonna flip so i turned the wheel left to try to straighten out n get back into the left lane. If i hadnt of been wearin my seat belt i would of flown through my […]
So many people have the audacity to call me a horrible parent and claim i dont accept responsibility. And its like, if you actually knew me and what me and my kids have been through, you would def think differently about me. Numerous years and hours were spent on my level 2 autistic sons’s therapy, hospitalizations and meetings with many different specialists. Waiting rooms were my 2nd home. So much paperwork that i could rebuild the amazon with. I dont think any of these judgemental people held my hand during all this.
Then there was my daughter who struggled with psoriasis/eczema and asthma n who was […]
Between working full time, my 7yrold finally being officially diagnosed as level 2 autism, in a custody battle with my 3yrolds father, and my daughter turning into a young woman. And then i attempted to date but he turned out to be a fkboy in sheeps clothing. Which always happens to me idk y i bother dating. Just really didnt have time to check in with myself to see if im mentally okay or not. Im 1 of those people who stays calm while the room is collapsing and on fire. Idk id say im in that numb stage right now. Like i wanna get […]
Well things have been goin good here. Been busy working. My 2 past overdoses did nothin for me, but it helped me feel better about my depression to do it. Its most def not my turn to die. Dont think it ever will. So im just livin life as best as i can n movin forward. Got rid of the bad people in my life. All my ex bfs/fiance tried to do a “new year new me” bs approach. Like “hey im married/dating n happy now but i remember when i was a total d*ck to you so txtin to say im sorry n if […]
So tired of seeing all my exs and my kids dads all being married n happy. Meanwhile here i am still single, and feelin like garbage because i dont get acknowledged.
I have a bunch of pills that i want to take so bad, but i just got a new job n start on monday. If i dont succeed, i dont wanna fuck that up or deal with side effects on my 1st day which starts at 6am :-p so tired of being alone and over thinking this.