Hello! If you remember any of my last posts (I don’t blame you if you dont), I’m currently in a mental rehabilitation center as necessary due to my recent suicide attempt. They allowed me technology today.
They’ve been shoving psyciatric pills down my throat and it’s so annoying, but I guess whatever helps. I hope to be out by the end of March.
See you the next time Im allowed my phone. Stay strong.
~Alex.
two days ago, i attemped to take my life. If you remember, i made a post on it a few hours prior. so, heres how that day went and where i am now.
That day i had waken up around 9pm. By 10 i had my mind made up. I ate breakfast, watched TV for a little while. After a couple hours, i began to secure the rope (i had previously bought it) to my ceiling fan, then i tied a hangmans knot that would so just fine.
I chose a chair and placed it underneath, standing on it with the rope around my neck. My adrenaline […]
If i do not delete this post before tomorrow, you will know that i have succeded in taking my life.
I am no longer able to keep going, i have lost all strive and will to keep going. Life has no meaning. I had one life and i had to spend it mentally fucked up and unable to function properly and im so done.
I wanted to make a long note, telling my story and how i got to this point, But i dont have the time.
I know people are going to be upset and sad. And i know this sounds selfish. But they should understand that […]
Don’t be that way
Fall apart twice a day
I just wish you could feel what you say
Show, never tell
But I know you too well
Kind of mood that you wish you could sell
If teardrops could be bottled
There’d be swimming pools filled by models
Told a tight dress is what makes you a whore If “I love you” was a promise
Would you break it, if you’re honest
Tell the mirror what you know she’s heard before
Idontwannabeyouanymore
Hands getting cold
Losing feeling’s getting old
Was I made from a broken mold?
Hurt, I can’t shake
We’ve made every mistake
Only you know the way that I break
If […]
I went back to school and work today, after nearly a week of staying in bed. Ive been eating less than 400 calories a day, but at this point i don’t even feel hungery.
Things have been looking better for me, but i feel so selfish for not being happy. I feel numb and sluggish, and i am anxiety stricken every moment of the day.
My mother hasnt been home much, so i dont have to deal with her as much as i usually do. Ive had a break from the screaming.
although my mother is screaming at me, my brain is hollering at the top of its […]
Im so happy right now!! I got a promotion at work! I was honestly about to quit bc of the salery, but now its much higher, just as i needed. Today was good.
Hello. I am new on this site.
My name is Alex, and i suffer from Bipolar, Paranoia, Schizophrenia and Social/General Anxiety.
these illnesses i carry make my life hell enough, but my home life doesn’t help it at all. My father died when i was 14, so its just been me and my mother for a while. She verbally abuses me. She screams and yells at me, calling me names and sometimes hitting me. She expects nothing but perfection from me, and if i do one thing wrong i get yelled at for hours.
Ive had 2 suicide attempts in the past. Once in 2015 and the other […]
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