eternaldarkness

I am ALONE in this world.
I have NO ONE.
No one to love me, no one for me to love.

Deprived of Love from Day1 of birth, this sad soul has never known love. Only hate.
Is it a wonder this sad sack of meat is utterly broken?

Why did I have to be born to suffer this shit life?
Why wasn’t I aborted? Fuck this shit called “life.”

These lies are so prevalent that we don’t even know all the lies that’s been told to us by society/industry. We just parrot these common talking points as if they were truth. Meanwhile, everything is told to us on purpose, so this industry and that industry can make a profit here, and there. Every lie we’ve been told has some kind of agenda behind it. Usually to profit some corporation/industry.

I knew it. I knew this rock bottom thing was bullshit, and now I know why. This is all a money-making racket. As 99% of most things in life boils down to the root of.

If ppl think they need to hit rock bottom, they won’t stop their destructive behaviours, bc they think they have to hit “rock bottom” first. And also, friends /family will refuse to help, and many are specifically told to NOT help from AA groups and counselors/therapists bc they “need to let the person hit rock bottom.”

Basically, if family truly help the person, and if friends are sympathetic, […]

We’re told once we hit rock bottom, it’ll be our wake up call and we’ll start to climb back up. But that is a lie. There is no bottom. When you think life couldn’t get worse, it does. Then it gets even worse. And worse. There is no “rock bottom.” I’ve hit “bottom” for the last 18 fucking years. The bottom just keeps getting lower and lower and lower, and life just gets worse and worse. Bottom is death. Nothing else. There is no hitting “rock bottom” whereby your life just magically gets better […]

Our society is fucked up. There is a reason why I am so unhappy with everything. Yes, there’s my personal issues like health and childhood/family traumas, but beyond that, there’s also the fucked up society we are living in that really gets to me. Our society is broken, in so many ways. If I didn’t give a crap like most ppl I know about things, then I could just be fine. The ppl who don’t care are happy as a clam.

Yes, I know I’m pretty fucked up from depression and trauma and everything that’s happened to me, […]

Happy and Evil, or Super Depressed but a good person?

what would it be? A real one, that actual real ppl have.

Ex: Dog Whisperer (like Cesar Millan), Cat Whisperer, Super Hacking Skills, Super Memory, Super Intelligence, Be a Great Liar, Be a Great Manipulator, Super Strong (like Strongman), Super Fast (Usain Bolt), Amazing Singer / Dancer / Actor, etc

to love yourself and still be depressed? Are there ppl here that love themselves, have good self-esteem, and yet is still depressed?

Most ppl are depressed bc they are lacking in self-love, self-esteem, self-confidence. Or hating themselves for what they’ve done/not done, for who/what they are, etc.

Just curious if there are ppl who love themselves yet are depressed.

This Dog has a better life than 95% of humans. -_-

From @Virus.Found:
“Where did my time go? Can I go back in time?” Very much this. Realising how long it’s been, how old I am, desperately wanting to go back.”

From @thehusk:
“will I be able to still make something out of it?” The older I get, the clearer it becomes how limited the future I’ve created for myself is. I have to face that most of my desires aren’t attainable anymore, if they ever were. That my chances of even scraping the minimal amount of contentment are highly unlikely, and in most cases the best I can do is try to find some way to […]

hey @Plainwhite, I read that post before you deleted it. I feel the same fucking way.

I can’t. I JUST CAN’T ANYMORE!!!

So I just put in a search for a former friend of mine from College/JHS. Apparently she is now the DIRECTOR of Information Security at some company. FUCKING A. She was my friend but she is dumb as a rock. By dumb I mean DUMB. This girl LITERALLY flunked out of my university for having <2.0GPA. Her GPA was a 1.7. That’s a COMBINED AVG over a 2 year period. Four semesters of consistently flunking everything.

She got kicked out and had to transfer to another school. She went […]

That’s me. Frank fucking Grimes.

https://screenrant.com/the-simpsons-villains/#frank-grimes
“Frank Grimes isn’t really a bad person, and that’s the problem. He has worked hard his entire depressing life and feels like he deserves more, especially when he meets his moronic new co-worker Homer after getting a job at Springfield power plant. Franks’s jealousy of Homer’s large house, beautiful family and amazing adventures is what sends the hateful feller into an early grave. There is a lesson for us all there. Not sure what that lesson is but it must be something.”

https://simpsons.fandom.com/wiki/Frank_Grimes
“Homer had a comfortable life, a polite family, an adorable baby, a genius daughter, a […]

When were you happy (if ever)?
When did you become depressed? How long has it been?
Do you think you’ll ever attain lasting happiness? What would make you happy?

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Those poor fish. Literally damned if you do, damned if you don’t.

I feel like this. Screwed no matter what, unless you’re the lucky few % that happen to make it through. And I’m certainly NOT one of the lucky few… -_-

sigh…

I hate humans, but as a human, we need human contact/socialization/acceptance/understanding/love. All of those things. Yet it is difficult to come by these days. UGH.

I never needed anyone before. I was fine on my own and being alone. But now that I have all my emotions back, I feel fucking lonely without true friends and a SO. How do I go back to being fine being by myself??

Fucking emotions. I don’t want them. At least not all of them. Life would be easier and simpler if I just felt LESS and cared LESS.

I’m on the same sites- YouTube, FB, SP, etc.
Any websites out there you use that makes you feel better?