eternaldarkness

-“You can talk to me.”
-You call or text. They ignore you.
-Unless you’re in a happy/good mood, in which case, they magically become “available.”
-When you commit suicide, “I had no idea s/he was depressed!”, “S/he never told me about it!!”
-Everyone plays the innocent hurt victim. Yeah, like THEY are the fucking victims.

-“You can talk to me.”
-You tell them you’re suicidal, and they get you locked up.
-Yes, you feel sooooo much better, because that’s just what you need, to get locked up.

-“You’re too negative. Change your mind to believe that people are innately good.” They all […]

-Suicide / assisted suicide is wrong. We will not let you kill yourself.
-But heck no, we will not give you any mental health care to help you with your depression.
-Or health care to help with your physical pains.

-Abortion is wrong. We will not let you kill a baby.
-But we sure as fuck are not gonna give you any help with pre-natal, maternity or childcare. Nope.

-Having sex before marriage is wrong. Having babies if you’re not married is wrong.
-But we are sure aren’t going to give you any sex ed on how to PREVENT babies. Nope.
-No contraceptives, […]

Maybe these bastards won’t let us die and want to keep us around so they can always point to us and feel better about themselves. After all, human happiness is relative and is based on comparisons with our peers.

-If all the super depressed people die, then the slightly depressed will be the most depressed in the population, and they’d feel worse than “just a little bad off.”
-If all the slightly depressed die, then the not-depressed-but-not-happy population will be the worst off, so they’ll feel like sh*t, because after all, everyone else is happy BUT them.
-And so on and so forth.

If that example […]

https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2015/02/death-in-america-is-getting-more-painful/385230/

Back in the day, we used to die of diseases that killed us rather quickly and rather earlier on in life. Now we live longer, but have to suffer longer and longer, and with more and more pain, from chronic diseases that take their toll, rather than from some acute deadly thing that takes you quickly.

I kinda miss those days of the past, you live till you’re middle age, then some nasty disease takes you and off you go. For those with depression and/or health issues, it just prolongs the agony. And if you don’t have health issues yet, […]

What did working hard ever do for me? Nothing. Life isn’t about how hard you work. Those who are “favorites” get promoted or get the offers. Or those who are evil and backstab and do everything they can to get ahead, and they do.

What did having morals and integrity ever get me? Nothing. Got me nowhere in life. All I’ve ever seen are bad people getting rewarded. Good people are stepped on.

What did being nice ever do for me? Nothing. People take advantage of nice people, use them, step on them. They do not […]

-eating something tasty
-getting a good deal on something
-nice breezy weather
-accomplishing something / getting something done
-[fill in the blank]

what would it be?

ex:
-taller
-thinner
-prettier
-smarter
-[fill in the blank]

No, answers like “dead” or “not depressed” is a given, so those are out. o_O

Over a couple of things. The BofA post is minor in the scheme of things, but it got my blood boiling, and I was already angry and stressed about something else earlier today. Something that’s more important than a $12 bs bank fee.

Sigh. I’m just angry and stressed. Life pisses me off. So much bullshit. Too much bullshit in this life.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9gE_oV80L1s

So when I signed up for an account 9 years ago, you had to maintain a minimum MONTHLY balance of $1500. You go under and you get charged a fee. Ok. So this month I went under by 18.60. I then deposited $500 three days later. I thought it was a MONTHLY balance of $1500 so I thought I was fine since I had over $2500 for most of the entire month.

But I got charged $12. I called and the girl was shitty. The girl tells me she can’t reverse the fees because I had a fee […]

you lived in an alternate reality where you somehow had unlimited money. What would you do? What would you buy? Practical things, crazy off the wall things, the limit is your imagination lol

Tried signing up for a depression dating site. Anyone ever tried one of those?

Well, after filling that long-ass profile (sooo many things to checkmark), a total of FIVE people came up in my results lol. FIVE. How sad and how pathetic.

One of these basturds said his dealbreakers are people who are “Pessimistic, negative, moody.” Uhm, which site did you think you were signing up for? You signed up for a DEPRESSION dating site, what did you think you’d find?? Happy, cheerful people? It’s like saying “I hate people who drink,” but goes to bars to pick […]

ACE = Adverse Childhood Experience

1. Did a parent or other adult in the household often or very often…Swear at you, insult you, put you down, or humiliate you? or Act in a way that made you afraid that you might be physically hurt?
If yes enter 1 ________

2. Did a parent or other adult in the household often or very often…Push, grab, slap, or throw something at you? or Ever hit you so hard that you had marks or were injured? If yes enter 1 ________

3. Did an adult person at least 5 years older than you ever…Touch or […]

Wouldn’t it be great if that existed? What would a world like that be like?

For many of us, we are unable to connect with others, which makes us unable to make and maintain close friendships/relationships, which then causes disconnect, loneliness and depression.

Some of us have many issues, but I feel like a lot of us are just disconnected from everyone. We feel outcasted, alone, different. Which then leads to all the other aspects of depression: isolation, self-harm, hatred, etc.

If you were able to connect with others, would you still be depressed? Or will most of it go away?

I think for me, a large part of it would be better. I would at least go out […]

I see so many comments here about people not being able to connect with other people. I can’t either. Why is that? Why are you/we unable to connect with others?

Aside from offing oneself.

If we’re forced to live, how do we live life and stop feeling depressed? How do we get better, feel happy about ourselves and our lives?

I’m tired of being sad, miserable and depressed. Been too many years / lifetime of that.

Nothing I’ve ever tried has worked. I don’t want more years of this hell. I don’t want to wind up an old hag, decades later, still dealing and trying to cope with this sh*t.

Good? Or selfish and only care about you/others if there’s something to gain?

Listened to Sebastian Junger last night and dug up this post I had posted a week and a half ago. Yep, no purpose, no contribution, and no recognition for any contribution. My life is meaningless and I am irrelevant.

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My life seems meaningless and pointless. If I died now, no one would care, no one’s lives would be affected. I am not a scientist nor engineer nor anyone that has, or will, develop any life-altering product or process or idea that changes the world or affects people’s lives. I am a nobody just like everyone else. I am just another […]

Found this quite interesting:

The full 84 min video here:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W4KiOECVGLg

Definitely worth your time to watch the entire video.

The moment the baby chicks hatch, the mother and father Barnacle Goslings go to the bottom of a 400ft cliff. The baby chicks jump off the cliff. Whoever survives gets to meet the parents at the bottom of the cliff.

If you don’t survive the fall, or if you’re too slow in getting up and making it to where the parents are, your ass gets left behind.

If you are squeamish, don’t watch this vid. No blood splattering or anything, but it’s pretty effin’ crazy.

How the f* did that thing survive after smacking into the rocks?

Damn, […]