eternaldarkness

It’s not fair that I’ve had to have such a shitty hard life. Not just hard but I had to work-in-a-sweatshop-since-I-was-7yo kind of HARD. And no, I did not grow up in a shithole 3rd world country. The shithole country I grew up in was here, in good ol’ USA. Land of capitalistic vultures who run our country and screw it’s citizens. Yes, that one.

People (and Presidents) call other countries shithole countries, but but even those “shithole” 3rd world countries like Mexico give it’s citizens universal healthcare. But not us. Not good ol’ USA. Nope.

Anyhow, I was […]

According to the NIH:

>At what age does brain shrinkage start?
“It has been widely found that the volume of the brain and/or its weight declines with age at a rate of around 5% per decade after age 40.”

I’m over 40.. -_-

Even during other depressive low points in my life, I was still able to have SOME joy briefly, even if it was for 5min- in stupid things like eating junk food, cakes, ice cream, etc. Now, not even food gives 5min of joy. And playing games at best distracts and keeps the mind numb.

No joy. Not even fleeting moments of happiness. Like zilch. Nothing.

Everything sucks when you have nothing to look forward to.

Life sucks. -_-

is it that some ppl have to have shit lives while others live happy cushy lives? -_-

Do you think you’ll ever achieve happiness, or do you think you’ll be depressed for the rest of your life?

On a scale of 1-10, with 1 being suicidal and 10 being blissfully happy, where are you on that scale?

Yes I know, it’s unlikely to ever happen, and wishing isn’t going to make it happen, but I wish I could have a miracle.

GM

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Tesla
https://www.vox.com/technology/2023/4/6/23673339/tesla-camera-privacy
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Welcome to 1984. The dystopian world is here. Most newer cars come with cameras, so it’s not just GM, Onstar, or Tesla. How do you know your car is not spying on you?? If it’s a new or new-ish car, it probably is.

Also, everyone who uses Alexa or Siri- they’re definitely listening to everything, 24-7.

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lol in what world do Suicide Hotline workers get paid $60/hr?

Are men seriously getting this kind of dating advice? No wonder everyone’s single nowadays! O_o

and not for nice caring people. People who care the most, people who have empathy, sympathy and feelings- generally tend to be way more depressed and suicidal.

1- Genuinely nice and good ppl get taken advantaged of.
2- Genuinely nice and good ppl (real ones, not the phony ass fake “nice” ppl that’s rampant) are the ones that are bothered by the news, by the state of the world, by actions taken by their local/state/country leaders, other world leaders, hell, even by local Karens and Kens.

The ppl not bothered by anything in the news, not bothered by the suffering of fellow human beings, not bothered […]

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YES, yes I agree with the comedian 😛

Most ppl live for their loved ones- family/spouse/children/SO. Hell, even their pet.
Most ppl live bc they have a good life. And if they don’t,
Most ppl live bc they have hope- of a future good life, of good things to come.

What do you do when you have none? No love, No hope, Nothing.
(And no, death isn’t even an option as it’s incredibly hard to pull off successfully without pain and chance of permanent damage).

annoy the shit out of me. So frustrating. So vexxing. Some ppl you just wanna slap. Like really.

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1- Men have the most comfortable softest boxers. Meanwhile, women’s underwear ride up, bras are uncomfortable as fuck, and clothes cost 3x more than men. I mean obviously I wear them only at home where no one sees me but yeah, they’re so soft.

2- Bought a pair of men’s workout shorts that came in the mail today. OMG I didn’t know they make them so soft and flexible. I want to buy another pair but it’s no longer on sale and don’t wanna pay full price :'(

I always thought men’s outer clothing were all durable, strong but rough. I guess not all. […]

I swear, the collective IQ of Americans is decreasing by the day. Hell, by the hour! I was on YT comments last night (as well as Quora and Reddit)… Idiocracy is not just a movie -_-

Yes, many of the dumb comments are from overseas idiots, but the majority of them are American (some clearly very American threads).

We have a few geniuses (like Edison, Franklin, Einstein, Tesla, Newton, Darwin, etc) that literally carry our species. If not for a few oddball geniuses, our species would be screwed, bc the rest of us are dumb as shit. ESPECIALLY the ppl on YT, […]

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I saw this post in another group I’m in. This sums up me exactly. I’m sure some of this applies to some of you as well.

I agree with everything until the sappy feel-good you are worthy bit in the end. I mean, yeah, we have to believe we are worthy to not be depressed, but I hate all those places that make you repeat “you are loved, you are worthy, you are special, blah blah.”

Aside from that last sappy section, the rest of the speech is pretty right on- for me.

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“The inability to receive support from others is […]

Things like THIS is why I no longer believe in humans or humanity. I mean, also based on my WHOLE life of being screwed. I used to be super sweet and nice, and genuinely would do anything to help ppl, and did, but no more. Not when you just get shit thrown in your face. Thank goodness I was never THIS nice. I would NEVER donate one of my kidneys. Oh hell no.

No good deed goes unpunished…
Woman fired after donating kidney to boss

Another one…
Woman Donated Kidney to Boyfriend — Then He […]

How do we get out of our shitty life when we no longer have any hope left? No longer have any fight left in us? No more “oompf” left?

To get out of our life, we must have hope. Without hope, without believing that rainbow exists and that there’s a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, we cannot proceed. Sure, we can only force ourselves to do so much. But that’s like dragging our feet at every single step. This doesn’t work but get us a few feet. REAL change involves having ZEST for life, feeling […]