eternaldarkness

Feels like a fool’s errand to put any energy or hope into humans
Feels like every humans is going to backstab or turn on you at some point
Feels like everyone will let you down at some point- not just a minor letdown- but a “i’ll never talk to you again” kind of letdown / betrayal.
When you realize 99% of ppl were never good to you to begin with.

Even the ones that were “good” to you, do things that are not good for you.

Just….sigh…

So this was a month ago I guess, but I’m watching these videos now and ALL the news stations pretty much parrot the same crap- that AI told the son to commit suicide and how to do it. Actually, they all had the same narrative:

1- They kept phrasing it as a “kid” or “child” despite the fact that the “child” was 16yo. Hardly a child. Hardly a kid that didn’t know what he was doing. Especialy since he lied to ChatGPT and told it he was “researching” for school or something.
2- This is the modern version of what I grew […]

A Shit Family?

ChatGPT or Online Therapy? If so, how good or bad are they? I’ve tried an AI depression chatbot once. It wasn’t all that helpful. But maybe AI has gotten better since then? Any suggestions?

I need to talk to someone but:

1- a good therapist is HARD to find
2- regular therapy costs money. even if insurance covers, there’s still $20 co-pay at minimum, for like 45min. Or in my case, I’m getting charged $15 and $20 for EACH session. IDKW i’m getting billed TWICE but they are. $15 or $35 each week -THAT gets pretty expensive pretty […]

Holy shit
1- They can have police trace your calls / your location
2- They can have the police haul you away and lock you up
3- They do this to 2% or 1 in 50 callers. That is a very HIGH #

Is it hope that “things will be better?”
Is it friends/family/SO? (ie love and care)
Is it drugs/alcohol/etc to numb yourself from this world?

How do we not fall into the abyss?

THIS. Watch this video. Video is 23min, but he gets right to the meat of the issue of what’s happening in America- this manufactured rage-bait and hate against the Left-Right.

Guy explains it perfectly. He’s an ex-military chief who specializes in behavior profiling, interrogation, and Human Intelligence operations. He says this is textbook military psyops. I had thought this before even seeing this video- but this guy says what I’ve been thinking in a much more succinct way.

with all this shit going on in the world and in the USA (for those of us in the US).

Life is fucking depressing unless you are
1- stupid/ignorant
2- delusional
3- lucky enough to have a good life- have enough money to not be affected or give a shit about the state of our economy or the shit that’s going on in the world

if we are aware of the bullshit and fuckery going on, how can one be happy? i mean aside from downing drugs to make ourselves into zombies?

WTF is happening to America? WTF is wrong with people?

I’m no fan of the right or of conservatives (nor am I a fan of the left, at least not anymore after the last 2 elections)- but assassinating someone who isn’t even a politician and doesn’t hold any political power? He’s also not even one of the most extreme ones on the right. But he is popular with the under 30yo crowd so I do see why he was taken out, so to speak.

OFC this is causing even MORE divide among the left and right. Makes me think if this wasn’t orchestrated […]

Life is full of either fuckery or bullshit. Leading to stress. Stress resulting from lack of money or just fucking incompetence and laziness from other people. Having to deal with bullshit things like in my Rants post. Like 1-3 could’ve been avoided but noooo.

Then there’s all kinds of other bullshit we gotta deal with. Too tired to even get to that.

In the end, we are born into a life where it’s all bullshit- go to school for 12yrs, then go to college for 4 more only to be tens of thousands in debt. Then when you graduate, you either […]

1- Stupid Amazon Delivery guys keep delivering to the WRONG area. They never WALK over to MY door, just drop the package off on the ground like 20ft BEFORE my door. I have more deliveries coming so it’s a fucking issue. And usually there’s a truck but I went out right after I got the message it was delivered and there was no truck- I literally got outside 2min after it was delivered- and I couldn’t even flag down the driver to tell them to deliver to the right door next time. Next time they’re going to deliver to the wrong […]

I just lopped off about 7-8″ of hair. Just used a scissor and done. Tired of my damaged hair snagging on the brush. Also didn’t want to pay like $30 to get my hair cut. They always charge extra for “long” hair. Anything over shoulder length is considered “long” but it’s just an excuse to charge more. I’m sure it’s uneven but eh.

I do like long hair much better than short, but it’s somehow freeing to get rid of those several inches. Especially since the bottom ones are more damaged/dry/split ends.

Anyway, not an important post but […]

THIS.
THIS is a lesson I learned too late in life. Women have treated me FAR worse than all the crappy men put together. It’s hard to explain to someone bc “no one punched you,” “no one physically harmed you,” and no one did anything “illegal.” But women do THE most damage to other women psychologically and socially (via gossip). It’s just not talked about. And these cu.nts pretend to be “your sweet friend”
when they are anything but.

“The Life That You Want Is On the Other Side of the Work You’re Avoiding”

Was watching Jimmy Carr and this part really struck me:
@5:25

What do you think? I think it especially applies to a lot of ppl here on SP, including me. Whether that means having more friendships, relationships, better career, moving to another city/state/country, etc. Depressed ppl are the kings and queens of procrastination. Not saying all of us here are, but I know I am.

I hate that I’m a procrastinator. I used to be very much a do-er, especially when it came to things I […]

THIS:
Sums up why Americans are depressed AF and stuck in this debt/just barely surviving loop
9min

Isn’t it funny how the shittiest people almost always have the best lives? So many good people get screwed, but all the shitty selfish dicks and cu.nts I know are living their best fucking lives. What a load of crock life is.

I mean I wouldn’t say ALL good people get screwed and ALL bad people wind up doing well BUT what I have seen IRL to the people that I personally know- that is mostly the case. The shittiest people have the best lives. The users, manipulators, liars, schemers, the super selfish, the ones that lack the most moral- THESE […]

Anybody regret anything? Or if you had the chance to undo / redo something, what would it be?

Me1- Should have gone for a different degree at a different university
Me2- Should not have quit my job / should have applied to others jobs
Me3- Should not have broken up with my ex (should have told him my depression, feelings)
Me4- Should have waited at least 1 day to drive back to DC
Me5- Should NOT have gone out that 1 fateful night, despite telling ex-friend NO a dozen times.
Me6- Should NOT have moved back home

Me7- Should not have worked so […]

Interesting Video. What do you all think?

Take a look at this story- this is just ONE example of how fucked up society is, how fucked up people are in general. This asshole manager isn’t the only asshole acting like this. We see more and more stories of the shit ppl do- this is beyond Karens and Darens. Something is fucking wrong with ppl these days. Do you think so? Growing up, we didn’t see all these stories- but then I grew up before the days of the internet and social media. IDK if people have ALWAYS been this shitty, or it just wasn’t covered bc […]

Have had a SHIT life since literally the day I was born. Been nearly half a century now and life has NOT gotten better, only WORSE.

-WHEN THE FUCK DO I GET A BREAK?
-WHEN WILL “THINGS GET BETTER?” as I’m constantly being told this by everyone for the past 22-32 years.