IF I could do one thing with this pathetic life I would kill myself and take all your pain with me so that no body ever has to live I have for the last 23 years. I know its impossible and my death will do nothing for the cause but its a sincere thought. I have been living in hell for so long that I feel that reaching actual hell could not be any worse than this, and I deserve to burn anyways. I figure a fair punishment for hurting my family to no end is burning in hell in eternal torture and flame. But […]
Would it be wrong, would it be right?
If I took my life tonight,
Chances are that I MIGHT.
Mutilation out of sight,
and I’m contemplating suicide.
I never realized I was spread too thin,
‘Til it was too late and I was empty within.
Hungry, feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin?
((It all started when I lost my mother,))
No love for myself and no love for another.
Searching to find a love upon a higher level,
Finding nothing but questions and devils.
I can’t go on living this way, nothing’s alright.
Considering abortion is making me think the only way out of this is death.
Is there any way I can block people on here? I’m getting sick of some peoples ignorance and antichrist attitudes namely sumer_rampage and lucy4. Ugh.
You are more than the choices that you make!
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes!
You are more than then the problems you create!
YOU ARE MORE! 🙂
I don’t have any emotion. I am completely numb. I have nothing to say, nothing to do, nothing to think. My mind is a total blank. This is almost worse than feeling depressed. Cuz I rather feel pain then nothing at all! All I feel is a constant state of anguish, like a slight annoyed/frustrated feeling but it feels more like I’m just completely uncomfortable in my own skin and in this house. I literally have nothing to say besides the classic “I don’t know”. I am not suicidal but I do want to die and if I found out I was gonna die tomorrow […]
I haven’t posted anything in a while, while I have been reading others posts and commenting I really have nothing to say as far as myself. I posted that I was entering a manic state, but now I’m not so sure. I have bipolar 2 so I don’t experience intense mania. I have sperts on and off of whats called hypomania. Less intense but still manic and comes with a harsh crash back to reality soon after. So for the last 6 days or so I have been calm, cool, and collected.
I woke up and realized I was completely over my ex and my depression […]
Its all sunshine and rainbows and butteries and unicorns and romantic comedies, right?
There’s always a happy ending, theres always light at the end of the tunnel, and good things always happen to those who wait, right!?
My fucking ass…!
Oh man I think my depression has shifted gears into a nice clam mania! aka (manic)
NICEEE!
I’m a total freakin rockstar from mars winning, I have one gear “GO” epic winning! lmao
ARE YOU BIPOLAR? “I’M BI-WINNING!
-Charlie Sheen-my fucking idol!
Um I love food!
what are your favorite comfort munchies?
I love dr. pepper, and I have way too many others to list like:
dominoes stuffed cheesy bread with bacon and jalapenos.
Pizza rolls with tapiitio
ramen noodles with tapitio
toaster strudels
tv dinners, especially manicotti and cheese ravioli
green chili chicken enchiladas
tamales and tacos
chinese food
mcdonalds swiss and mushroom snack wrap1
and the list goes on forever, let me know about your favorite muchies, type of cuisine, and or restaurants!
Well I just can’t do this anymore! I came to my aunts about a month ago to get my shit together. I got off drugs, got my food stamps, got back on meds, trying to get my insurance back, and I have applied once again for my social security disability. Some good things in the works I guess BUT my depression, and suicidal ideation is at an all time high. I almost killed myself in my aunts basement and for that I am disgusted with myself. The funny thing is now that I am clean I haven’t had one craving for drugs! NOT A ONE! […]
I am dying inside in a sort or agony/hell/torture that is literally unimaginable! I have the perfect opportunity right now to end it! I won’t have this opportunity again for several days! I could be setting up the equipment right now as we speak and be gone within a hour. BUT NOOOO, I don’t have the fucking balls enough to go thru with it! I’m too afraid of the pain which I know will be over within 5-20 mins. The pain I have been feeling for the last 12 years by far out weighs the pain of hanging myself. I KNOW THIS! BUT I STILL […]
If we could all just win a few million dollars, would that make a difference to anyone?
If you had one wish would you choose money, or death?
I think I would choose the money because I believe I could buy the happiness I always wanted with that and plus If I had the money death would be a breeze! I could afford to buy all the drugs in the world have my own house were I could die peacefully if I choose…
BUT… that will never happen, FML, I just want to die die die!
If you don’t know, The Sunset Limited is a movie, about a suicidal man with two very famous actors in it. Its defiantly worth a watch.
Anyways, I feel like Tommy Lee Jones in that movie. Nobody gets me, except for the people on this site! I’m living in a constant state of agony as I have never felt in my life. As some of you know I tried to hang myself yesterday. I landed on with my feet on the floor the first time I tried due to not calculating the rope position properly after the noose was tightened it left too much space. So […]
Well I posted last night “still alive but I’m barely breathin”
The time has come now. I have the house to myself. The hardest part was making the knot on the hangmans noose but thats accomplished. Now I’m taking a smoke break because that was exhausting. After this cigarette I am going to make the note to attach to the door saying “do not enter, horrific scene inside, just call 911, DO NOT ENTER” then I am going to attach the rope to the ceiling after I move the furniture a bit so I have nothing to try to stand on in the event panic sets […]
Hi I am Brittany, 23 year old female. I live in the great state of Arizona!
(isn’t it funny that even in the worst state of agony I have ever felt, I still try to put on a happy front.)
Well I could put my whole life story here, BUT thats alot of typing. :p So Ill just try to sum it up and make this short and bitter.
I attempted my first suicide when I was 12 years old, I nearly died. I started taking meds at this time. I have been thru so many things its hard to name them all. I was abandoned by my […]