Hi everyone! I haven’t been on this site in forever but wanted to come back and share my story. Several years ago I was in a deep black depression that I just couldn’t shake. I was on medicine and seeing a therapist but it wasn’t helping. I saw no point in living and only thought of death. I attempted suicide many times and failed… self harmed nearly every day. I saw no hope and no reason for moving forward…. but I kept going. To this day I’m not sure what brought me through but I made it out of the dark. I came back just […]
If i have plastic bag over my nose and mouth and a scarf tied over that… how long will it take me to die?
I may not mind existing so much if I was invisible. If nobody could seee. That’s how I feel anyways, invisible. Nobody sees me. Nobody looks at me. I am surrounded by “family” and yet completely invisible. I could disappear and it make no differen e. I could evaporate into thin air and nobody notice. What kind of existance is that?
My birth mom has never wanted me. She has made that clear. My stepmom stepped in and has been a mom figure. She said she loved me. She said i was one of her kids. Then she stopped talking to me. Im on a trip with them this weekend as a last goodbye. Please pray i jave the courage to finally kill myself sunday. I have chickened out every time amd its time.i thought i finally had a mom. How stupid was i for thinking for a moment i was lovable.ha
If I tie a plastic bag around my head and go to sleep will it kill me? I’m hoping to suffocate tonite
My mind is racing and I feel out of control. All I think about is hurting myself. I’m scared. I have never felt this severe urge to bleed. I can’t do this. I’m crazy and alone. I’m going to die soon and nobody will notice if they do it will be relief  that I’m gone. I’m at the end. This is it. There’s no more light only darkness
Having been a cutter since I was 11 sometimes I have trouble getting blood to satisfy my fucked up mind… So today I put safety pins into the veins in my wrist and breast and it bled a lot. I had hope for a second I would bleed to death but sadly I’m alive. I just  want  to die. I should get a bigger needle
I have been in bed since Sunday evening after my….”breakdown”. Still shaking, still feeling generally lowsy, still crying and still randomly short of breath. I don’t know if my nervous system is shot or if I have finally just went mad..either way I’m a mess.
Do you ever just wish you could stop breathing? Just cease to exist? I just feel no joy for life….I don’t feel happiness… I don’t really feel anything at all. People look at me and think I’m doing better and I’m not. I’m basically lying to everyone and it kills me. I’m not better. I’m still cutting multiple times a day and most days all I can focus my mind on is death…. I haven’t felt this down in a while and I’m just not sure how to pick myself up.
I think I had a nervous breakdown Sunday night…. a couple things happened with my […]
Anybody know how to delete your account on here??
Im so confused about what is happeneing on here!! I was talking to kallie and have been devestated and sick thinking  the sweet girl from the emails lost her battle with depression and now pol are saying it was a hoax?!? WhO would do that?  Pret on somebodys emotions like that? Im so confused….. Whats the point of this site if its  all  lies?  Im here out of desperation… Tryin to find people who understan….i dont know what tothink
Like a couple others I received an e-mail from Kallies sister Kamryn this evening. Kallie killed herself last night after posting a final note on here. My heart is so broken and discouraged. I only knew her through here and e-mail but I feel priveledged to have been able to get to know her. She was so funny and had a wonderful personality. She felt so much pain and hurt in her short 15 years of life. My prayers are with her family and loved ones. I know that she is missed more than she ever thought possible.
Kallie,
Babygirl I would give anything to receive another […]
I don’t know what to do. I feel like I had a connection with somebody on here and they just posted they were killing themselves and now they aren’t responding. I feel helpless. Kallie_Jayde if you see this please let me know if you are okay PLEASE
I took 6 pregnancy tests tonight…..all positive. I’m terrified but a little happy. More terrified though! I think about dying all the time and now I’m producing life? I don’t what to feel. I just so scared
I’ve never really set goals for myself…mostly because since I was 14 I have always seen myself commiting suicide at a young age and dying young. I fight every single day not to kill myself because it just seems like my destiny…..
Recently I have been thinking a lot about my situation and what could have helped me not turn out this way. I realize that a lot of my behaviors are because of the abuse of my childhood. I have spent many years thinking that i was defective, crazy, beyond help and basically just irreversibly fucked up. I know that other people feel that way. […]
So I woke up another morning. I saw my therapist this morning and told her nothing of my plans to kill myself or how bad the urge has gotten. How much I think about death. That I don’t see myself making it another month. What’s the point in counseling?? You can’t be honest…you tell them that you want to die and you will be thrown in a mental hospital which in my experience does nothing but make you wanna cut more and wanna die. I’ve done what I was supposed to do..i got “help”, I take the medicine everyday and I do all the coping […]
I have made my decision no chickening out. Â I am posting this so when my family goes through my phone which they will they will see i weighed my options and i was sure. Â You cant escape yourself and i am the problem i cant blame anyone but me. I truly believe this is the best for everyone no more worries about me cutting or worries about me being depressed i will be gone and their lives can go on and be happy. They deserve te best amd im not it
I  stumbled across this site while researching methods of suicide… I decided on Thursday t o kill myself and yesterday was supposed to be  be the day but i chckened out.  I know people say that suicide is selfish and think of your family but for me going on living seems more selfish.  I have been depressed for as long as i can remember and attempted suicide several times. I have been hospitalized  and see a therapist weekly but i am still deeply depressed and still cut daily. My mother thinks that i am crazy and wants me commited. Mostly so i would be out […]