i dont wanna sleep……soooooo who wants to talk?
lately they never wanna stop:'( i just wish they would:/
anyone…i kinda low right now…need a distraction..email me?
hannahschelling.15@gmail.com
the pain she hides
is oh so real
though her actions
couldnt allow
you to see
her real
she hides all day
she is real at night
when life is good
the sadness holds on
and she will never know what she wants
cant you see
the tears that fall
all she wants is for someone
to call
is she special
she will never know
maybe death is the way to go
should she live
the answer unknown
maybe just maybe she should
fall
down below
because no one will know this girl
exactly how she is.
help me?
it hurts so much knowing the person i need the most has to be far away…even more so when thats a permenent fact and can never be changed….thank god for technology but it still makes me sad that my bestest friend ever cant be right next to me:(
i kinda give up on suicide attempts my life is no longer that bad BUT of course its like ive grown addicted to the sadness i felt so long it wont leave so i cut..and cut..and Cut and…CUT..til i cant take nothing then i cry and wish everything was ok…but that will never be
so, first off im happy today:) (but its night so that will change im sure.) but one thing is really annoying me and probably always will cause i will never understand what goes thru my friend’s mind.
he says his life will go dark without me (saying i die) cuz im his best friend and he has no one else..? ok cool. understand that. he says im amazig and the bestest friend ever? i dont believe it cuz i have proof im not: first, im not that nice i complain and get depressed and hes the ONLY one i talk to when i […]
im happy BUT ONLY during the day..once evening through night hits im all for suicide…why? this is really annoyingXDX
i just got to. seriously. life and i will never be best friends not even friends..or anything else i can barely pull through. im tired..emotionally..TRUST ME! id sleep if i could but i cant..i want my life to be peaceful and fun…sure at school its fun but my family ruins everything only cuz i was left alone with no adult allyesterday and into early morning did i go out at night to have fun…im ready to die..i wish everyone was okay with it…most are. but some arent:/ i just wanna die so i can never be bothered by the people that annoy me most…oh well […]
yeah opposites i know. but maybe thats not a bad thing???? i got my life in control right now. i do. sure my family is still a bit outa line (understatement) but I know how to have fun…i fuck off when my family pisses me off..sure ive turned into quite a ***** but as long as im having fun with my friends I DONT CARE! god in school im the worst i bad mouth teachers at any given moment may it be behind their back or to their face i still find it fucking hilarious. i NEVER EVER BULLY! im not like that..but i am […]
lately all i can think of our positive scenerios..which is a good thing duh! but then why? im a negative person thoughXD my life is hella negative..some positives of course but it really sucks. so here is my idea? i live? i die? one positive and one negative. which one is which? who knows. some say death is positive some say its negative. thats not the point. then what is? thats up to YOU. if we all live? look at what we learned? A LOT! if we all die? what did we learn? we learned we had ENOUGH and we took a stand and put […]
but when u end a 5month long distance relationship, being friends isnt much of a possibility:/ oh wel dont know why im sad over this i broke up with him cuz i already have another boyfriend…(one i can actually see everyday i wannaXD)
i may be someone else’s baby now but i still kinda wish i was yours…if only u’d forgive me…
some people just make it more and more clear i dont belong here…even on SP..maybe i should walk away..and die. soon i will give the people their wish im sick of bitches and douches. just shut up if u cant be nice.
wake up
get beat physically by sister verbal abuse by dad and watch mom say nothing all for being alive
wonder around (not like i have anyone to hang with?)
sister has chores: this means “ok whatver” then “hannah if u dont do my chores i will beat u so hard” not llike i can just walk away cuz she chokes me and pusheds me to the ground then says “wow this is why your fat all u do is sit on your ass”
then i do her chores an my chores and when i do something of hers wrong guess what? im slapped and […]
i know im sick. i have made my stomach so small that a cracker fills me up all day but ive been trying to eat more..not going so well:/ i cant focus on anything cuz im dizzy my vision is spotty im weak and freezing always…everytime i stand up i feel crazy light headed, everytime i breathe it hurts (thats gone on for 3 months) and then i cut a lot more and deep too…suicide is my number one thing on my mind lately…i used to be not tobad…but this doesnt feel right…idk yet but i might see if i can go get help now. […]
ughhhhhh!!!!!!! one of my best friends texted me saying: “i really love you” and guess what…just another guy i cant TRULY have cuz this guy lives in california! and i just had to move away to idaho! ugh…FUCK LOVE….
im in 9th grade. since 6thgrade u wouldnt ever see me being social in the halls or being yelled at from across the classroom..i was quiet…now i realized im havin no fun cuz i dont putmyself out there to have fun…now i have more friends then everXD soooo on do i have plans this friday? YES! going out to a party…loving life today….! hopefully it continues…
wait! i just remebered my nick is fakingit…thats what ive been doing..all along but now i changed my image…im kinda a rebel, im late to class always..i txt during school, and im the loudest with my group of friends…ive been […]
im done…bf pissed me off again:/ i know we’ll be back together but…i feel maybei should just go now..so hopefully pills and a knife will make tomorrow a day of non exisistance forever
do i annoy anyone of u? PLEASE be honest..il take any answer…just curious to see if im right…that i do annoyng people..so tell me please!
depressing when im in the middle of class and i go on a suicide board:/ fuck my life