Why did I have to spend all my money before my attempt? Now I have to put on an act until I have enough money for another helium tank :'( …at least I know where I went wrong!
Since I decided to end things I have found my sense of humour… I feel happy! It feels so strange since I have been living for so long faking laughter, smiles, interest.
I have a very big helium tank behind my couch all set up and ready to go. I spent yesterday getting ready and I found myself occasionally reaching over to touch the tank or the exit bag, all I felt was assurance and comfort. I’m a little nervous, but not enough to question my choice.
How did I get here?
I have got no idea how I have lasted this long. When I was 17 I […]
I’m planning on posting my story soonish… but just had a thought… do you think I’ll be able to keep up with my tv episodes in the afterlife? maybe I’ll be too busy for tv anyway? Still that would be a sore point for me if I didn’t know how Pretty Little Liars ends… or if I couldn’t watch season 3 of Continuum… or The Vampire Diaries, or Glee, or Murdoch Mysteries, or Nikita, or The Newsroom, or The Mentalist…
It doesn’t bother me enough to sway my decision… but still, it would be nice to know!