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gwerg

Besides talking about how shit life is, like I know I can go all day about and many of you here on this site can go on about. I am going to talk about why I’m really contemplating ending my life. And that starts with myself.

I blame myself for my own death. Not really myself by my own actions but myself, myself. Aka my brain. Not only does my brain overthink every single thing which causes my depression, but I seem to have no interests and accumulate no joy out of everything. I can’t keep an relationship, I am too boring and depressing of an […]

11/19/2016 4 comments

Just when I thought life couldn’t get worse

by gwerg 6/20/2016

written by gwerg

I was at the bottom. Been depressed for 5 years, almost 6 now. Then I made the mistake pursuing a girl I found interesting despite how depressed I was, how unready I was to have one. She was my happiness for 4 months. She was the first love of my life. I know having one thing dependent on your happiness is bad, but I truly had nothing else that could of gave me happiness. I gave her everything. I treated her like she was a princess. But then all of a sudden, she just left me. Her love for me wasn’t the same, she changed. […]

6/20/2016 8 comments

Bored all the time

by gwerg 2/8/2016

written by gwerg

Is there a point of living life when nothing interests/satisfies you? I don’t think so. 24/7 bored, I blame who I am

2/8/2016 5 comments

There is no way I am having kids/rant

by gwerg 10/27/2015

written by gwerg

It would be immoral for me to have kids. To bring them to this meaningless world, full of pain, sorrow, death, hardship, work, illness etc. The good, happy moments of life pass away in the blink in the eye, while the bad moments of life seem to be much longer. The unhealthy things in life seem to be the things that bring us the most joy. People constantly looking for any sort of distraction or getaway such as weed, alcohol, love to make them escape from this terrible world momentarily. This generation is glued to their electronic devices because it is simply a more enjoyable alternative […]

10/27/2015 7 comments

Anyone else feel like they deserve to die?

by gwerg 10/12/2015

written by gwerg

I deserve to die, I was fortunate enough to live in a family with a good income and provide me for anything I pleased. But I did nothing but take advantage of them, lie to them and spend every single day playing video games and occasionally smoking weed while failing school. I am definitely one of the laziest, biggest piece of shits in the world. I am absolutely useless and provide nothing to this world whatsoever. Hopefully in these coming days, I will have the courage to end it, as not only do I don’t want to be alive, but I don’t deserve too either.

10/12/2015 7 comments

I truly believe I am destined for a life of nothing and depression.

by gwerg 7/16/2015

written by gwerg

Something big hit me today when I was lying down on my bed. I have came to the realization there is nothing I actually want to do with my life. And when I say nothing I mean absolutely nothing. Everybody I have ever known has their own set of goals or things they want to do with their life. Whether that be in a loving relationship with kids, travel the world, go to concerts and parties,do any activities and so on. Everybody wants to do something.

Me? I want to do absolutely nothing. I don’t look at anything and be like I want to do this […]

7/16/2015 15 comments

Hardest decision I will ever have to make in my life

by gwerg 6/2/2015

written by gwerg

The decision to keep going for the hope of a better life even though I have been hopeless for multiple years and staying for the only 2 people that have ever cared about me in my life (my parents) or to be selfish and just enter peace where I end the years of suffering every single second of my life where I am not sleeping. I am tired of crying and just want peace. Decisions, decisions. A decision that will mean life or death.

6/2/2015 8 comments

The only reason I am still alive is because of my parents

by gwerg 5/24/2015

written by gwerg

It would be selfish for me to kill myself considering all that my parents have done for me. They are the only 2 human beings that actually care about me. I just want to apologize to my parents for having such a big piece of crap that I am. I am literally already dead but still breathing. I stare brain dead into the computer screen all day, every tiny part of me is gone and I have to cry myself to sleep everyday. Being depressed for 5 years does that to people. How much longer I can keep going for my parents remains a mystery. […]

5/24/2015 3 comments

Depression takes every single second of my mind

by gwerg 5/13/2015

written by gwerg

Who else is with me here? I don’t just get depressed, I’m always depressed. My mind can’t think about anything else unless I am unconcious (sleeping). Nonstop pain every second of my life for years now. Every single memory I’ve ever had is gone now, I don’t remember even the biggest days of my life. It’s incredible I am still alive, when my brain doesn’t even function no longer. I just want to stop being tortued alive and be in a unconcious state forever..

5/13/2015 2 comments

The biggest loser in the world

by gwerg 5/11/2015

written by gwerg

The title explains who I am. The list of things wrong with me doesn’t stop at the age of 18. -Do nothing every single day my entire life but play video games. -Eat nothing but fast food. -have 0 friends. […]

5/11/2015 3 comments

How long have you been depressed and when did you first start getting treated for it?

by gwerg 5/9/2015

written by gwerg

I’ve been extremely depressed for 4 years now (basically my entire teenage life) and have yet to seek any medical attention, like an idiot. So out of curiosity, how long have you been depressed, when did you start getting therapy and how has it been so far? Will be looking forward to every response. I am extremely depressed and closed to the edge but I doubt anything will truly help me.

5/9/2015 6 comments

There is no other way to look but death for me

by gwerg 5/2/2015

written by gwerg

I’ve been depressed for 4 years now. It wasnt that bad in the beginning but as time went by it has gotten nothing but worse to the point where now it literally takes up my entire brain. Every single second of my life except for the time I am unconscious (sleeping) is spent being eaten alive by my depression, unable to think about anything else. How can I not be? I am literally the biggest piece of shit in the world. You think you or someone you know is as worse as can be you are dead wrong because you haven’t heard about me yet, […]

5/2/2015 6 comments