I’d like to think I have a lot of decent qualities, but one thing I’d like to change about myself more than anything is my painful inability to communicate well. I’m terrible at articulating myself and having conversations, and it’s extremely frustrating. I can’t help wondering what went wrong during the time I was developing into an adult, but it’s my biggest insecurity and I feel so bad about it. I don’t think I’m fun to be around because I’m so socially awkward and I think it’s at least part of the reason the person I’m interested in doesn’t feel the same.
I tried but I’m just not good enough for my friends. I’m sorry for ever bothering you guys. I’ll just leave you alone from now on.
There’s nothing wrong with my life. I have friends, a good education, a loving/supportive family, I’ve been doing the things I love, I pretty much have everything I want, I’m not homeless, and my health is great. Yet I’ve still been suffering mentally and emotionally. I don’t understand.
Despite what I think of myself, I still have a reason or two to keep holding on. So maybe I’ll just stick around for now.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve hated myself. I feel stupid and worthless, like I have no real place in this world. There’s something wrong with me because I always struggle so much to know what to say. I’m pathetic, too much of a coward to stand up for what I believe in and so unmotivated I won’t amount to anything. I’m so ashamed of myself, I’m nothing more than a bad mistake. Instead of continuing to be a mistake, I’ll go ahead and do something I should have done a long time ago: end my stupid existence. This will do so many people a favor, I won’t be a burden on myself or anyone else ever again. Goodbye everyone, it’s time for me to leave this world. I’m sorry for ever plaguing you with the virus that is me.