i started cutting the other day… i done it before but this one was worse..
i just have so much anger built inside me. to where a lil thing that goes wrong i just want to blow the fuck up!!.. i can’t take it anymore
my family is the reason why i just wanna disappear from the world.
they aren’t nothing but stupid selfish ass people, who could care less about you!
they fuck everything up. i can’t stand to be around them. they ruined my life pretty much
its been a few months since iv been on! but is it wrong for one person love 2 ppl at the same time?
iv been in love with my ex for almost a year now. but iv cut all connections with him. cuz he leads me on and ditches me all the time
but there is something i get over him.
and the guy I’m with currently treats me like a queen.
but my ex has saved my life from my trying to kill myself but then he always makes me want to do it.
almost a year ago i got raped
so many ppl […]
well damn everything is falling in place now. i had some really bad troubles with ppl. and life and things have been really hard for me lately. to where i thought i really had no part in this world. but im moving i have a new guy im talking to and having fun with friends and stuff. life just threw me a curve ball. but it got back straight.
for some reason. the music artist Eminem knows exactly what to say.
hes a roll model to me.
i dont care about his past. and things that he has done.
he just gets to ppl. (i think)
hes the only person that knows how to keep my head up
i just listin to his music and listin to see what he went through and i think to my self i dont have that and if he can keep everything going then can i.
he talks about his life. and how he gets through it telling you to keep your head up to. and gives advise!
if […]
i tired of trying to make things work when you dont even try anymore.
ill iv done is cry
go to sleep sad
and wake up the same way
iv givin up
im tired
youv only left me with a broken heart and i dont see why im with you still.
can reading a love story change your mind your your relationship that you are currently in?
alright well i dont understand. is that i go from happy as can be to depressed and then happy again? its a war between sadness and happines with me…
if you walked by a crowed of people. would you be able to point out the ones that are sad and the ones who have nothing better to do then just kill them selvs?
so far im my life i have screw things up!
relationships
friends
parents
family
to them. im just a piece of shit.
i have thought about my suicide again. it stopped but has came back in every way to hurt me.
i thought suicide was just a phase for me of what i was going through when my dad treated me like shit.
now it has came back. and i screwed up again. one of the most important thing to me. the happiest thing i have ever felt. but i screwed it up. and now all i can do is cry and feel like. nothing.
i cant do this anymore. i cant keep holding back all these tears. i cant do it anymore. but idk why im even still even here still.
please let it stop.
okay well. not to long ago i got raped.
after that day and that day and so forth. people think im taking it well. cuz i dont show affection.
well i do.
in my head i do. im always playing back of what has happened. and it always come put in my head when i dont try to think about it.
one night i just cried. but i hold it in.
i cant take the things back. no one understands. my bf. i cant even talk to him about it. he gets mad and just doesnt wanna listen. and i understand but i need to […]
what i just found out.. last night that ..
well like almost a month ago i got rapped.. by my used to be step dad. and then my neightbor was talking to my mom about it last night .
that he could have killed me..
if he didnt want anyone to find out about it.. it breaks my heart. for my mo to live in so much pain alone.. she still cant handle me getting rapped and then if he killed me ?.. my mom will be just left here alone. with no one helping her and her having nothing to do any more. my […]
i always wonder if people look at me and think.. damn i wish i looked like her!! or do they think damn shes ugly ass fuck. im a kinda thick girl and active tall long blond hair. and you would think ppl would like that but i guess not..
when people say stay strong things will get better i promise.. it never turns out to be like that in my case i get over everything. and it comes back cuz of something else happened to top that problem..
feeling like shit and nothing going right in your life. called whore by your dad and telling him to pack your things cuz she dont want you living with him anymore. then moving in with my mom everything starts getting better then BAMM you get raped by your step dad then end up getting a bf that same night and scared your gonna lose him your […]
well. imma try my best to help you as much as i can and i hope im able to get through to you.
So.. i used to in your shoes. its either not eating trying to kill yourself or cutting. and i did all 3. there might be more but im not aware of them really. anyways . you are most likely not wanting to live an the moment right now. and i completely understand. but tell your self everyday that you are beautiful and special and perfect in someones eyes. write your self notes in the bath room or on […]
im lost.
never liked
everyone hates me
just a toy
never wanna wake up
wanna die
heart beating fast
and shorty to be dead
am i the only one that has problems and only sleep with guys just to feel loved. because you never got the love affection from ur mom cuz you where separated from her and all ur dad did was care about him self and didnt bother to buy you things or feed you. only yelled at you. cuz you where a screw up and did nothing right and felt like shit. and had everything you done wrong held over head. and then that same day . you screw up he desides to tell the whole fucking family. makeing you want to kill urself cuz all […]
i dont feel like i should really be here anymore! im so shamed of my self . Even my parents dont like me. and i can tell. Everytime i get into a car i always think “will we get in a wreck today?” iv been wanting to get into one so bad lately so i can just die and no try to kill my own self. Its really hard when all you are a disappointment to just about everyone in my family . no one ever notices me anymore its like im a ghost and im not even there just a voice thats never heard […]
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