think to much..

what i just found out.. last night that ..
well like almost a month ago i got rapped.. by my used to be step dad. and then my neightbor was talking to my mom about it last night .
that he could have killed me..
if he didnt want anyone to find out about it.. it breaks my heart. for my mo to live in so much pain alone.. she still cant handle me getting rapped and then if he killed me ?.. my mom will be just left here alone. with no one helping her and her having nothing to do any more. my mo has been beatin. choked and passed out throw across the room slammed into the wall.. broke her nose . black eyes..
i just dont understand why someone will do that. and his family knows what he does but still chooses to no believe it..
i just dont understand. him and his mom and dad need to go to hell.