Okay so I’ve always had suicide in the back of my mind. I’ve always seen a tall building and imagined the relief of jumping off the top, or plunging from a bridge, or just stepping out into traffic. I’ve watched films where people have shot, hanged, or drowned themselves and I admire it. I imagine it. I dream about it! But I never actually felt like i’d go through with it. I think they call it ‘suicidal ideation’. I’ve never got any help, never thought I needed it. Yesterday I finally went to a doctor because anxiety was taking over my life, and she gave […]
I’ve realised lately how lonely I’ve been feeling. Me and my ‘best friend’ recently parted ways after I realised the emotionally abusive relationship I had gotten myself into. But it doesn’t hurt any less. In fact I am lonlier than ever. I have friends from my past as well as university friends, but I can’t talk to anybody about my feelings. I can’t really talk about how constantly anxious I am and how down I feel almost all the time. It’s strange, I can’t even bring myself to go to a doctors about it.
So all I have left is you guys. Anybody also feeling lost […]
So a few months ago I left university for the day, half way through, because I couldn’t take the overwhelming nervous feelings of being with my classmates, and lecturers, who are the type of people that make you feel on edge, never good enough. Leaving my coat, bag and items sprawled out across the desk to look as if I was just leaving for lunch, I escaped and walked home as fast as I could, heavily breathing because of the stress of the day.
I don’t know what it was, maybe the fact that my lecturer is quite harsh and makes me feel my work is […]
I am kind of stuck. I’ve wasted an entire year at university but have been barely able to get out of bed let alone get a degree, so now I am redoing my second year. (I am writing a separate post about that)
All I want to know is, how am I supposed to go and get help from a doctor if I am too anxious? I know many people on here suffer from anxiety, how did you first go and get help? Like my nervousness is so crippling I can’t even think about going to the doctors!
I get stomach pains when I am anxious, and […]
Lately I can’t stop feeling like this world is such a difficult place to be in. Obviously, it is, for like 90% of people. But, when I say it, I think so deeply about it. The overpopulation, unemployment, homelessness- so many good and intelligent people with no place to sleep, let alone work. And then I am here. Not necessarily privileged, but certainly more than many, having had a good education, enough money, and a place to live. Is that fair? Do I deserve what so many people could only dream to have.
I complain about this life, my life, and I can’t stop the misery I get […]
Hi guys, I am new to this site, came across it while looking for an outlet for my negative thoughts. I struggle to talk to people about how I feel, and I am finding it increasingly difficult to live with the loneliness of not being able to express myself. My friends are kind. I don’t have many, but the ones I do have I appreciate and are there for me often, but more in terms of meeting up and having fun, rather than being able to specifically talk to them. That’s why I am here.
For many years, I have felt insecure. I was severely bullied […]