I wonder if she is really happy, I love her so much. But I’m away a lot, I went to school away from home for two years and now I’m home again but I work a lot, and some days I don’t even come home because I’ll stay at my sisters. But whenever I’m home she’s so happy to see me and she follows me everywhere and when I move around the room she’ll come plop down at my feet, it’s so cute.
But sometimes when I look at her I wonder if she is as sad as I am? Or if she notices the things […]
I am a waitress and I see the saddest people come through this hotel restaurant. It is some kind of nightmare day after day seeing these unfortunate souls drift through. I wonder what made them hold on so long? I have a horrible habit of feeling sorry for people, but I think that is because I consider myself good at reading people. And I don’t want to condemn anyone, but honestly I see hopelessness in thier eyes and it breaks my fucking heart.
There’s this one older gentleman that I cannot get out of my head. He’s pretty old, I know his health is an issue, […]
I dunno guys, I mean if anyone is even fucking reading this that is, but I’m used to being ignored so it’s okay if no one is. But okay so I was saying: I dunno, this is how I feel about this stuff.
I mean everyone on this website is here for a reason, we all have a certain tendency or perhaps curiosity, we’re all at different stages, but whenever I see people actually planning things for real I get so sad. I get sad because […]
I don’t know what I’m doing, I’m so so lost. I bounce between feeling numb and incredibly sad. But when I’m around people, which is only when I’m at work, I can act so happy and chipper that sometimes I wonder if I’m actually not depressed at all.
But then I go home and I’m alone again and I can’t sleep and I really really want to kill myself. And I have these weird dreams that remind me that nothing is okay. I want to kill myself. I desperately need to. I don’t know what’s beyond life but I know I shouldn’t be here.
Im so sad […]
Please excuse my ramblings if they don’t make any sense, I don’t really sleep anymore. This isn’t the root of my problems I’m just saying maybe the things I say won’t make sense because I’m bad at communicating when I am this tired.
I don’t really know what I want to say actually, I am just very lonely and lost. My world view is very dark, from what I have seen of the world, it is very ugly to me. I don’t see people in a good way anymore. Lots of things went wrong with me, I hate myself so much.
For the past five years, I […]
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