jack86

I’m so depressed this weekend and I have absolutely no one I can turn to or lean on. My parents just called from Europe where they’re living the next few years. I just want to cry and tell them I’m hurting and I miss them, but they can’t come back, so it won’t do any good. My mother just lost her mother this month. I want to be strong, but I need some human contact, and I’ve lost my friends and family.

So since I can’t tell them I’m hurting, I just act like an asshole, and I act like I don’t want to talk to […]

Christmas 2012 Trip is now over and I’m back home with my family. Until they all leave for the cities they live in now. Even the people I love the most drive me crazy, I can’t stand them. I am so pissed off at them all and sometimes I feel no connection to them anymore, even though they were the only reason I held on for so long.

I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I know they love me and all, but I am so mad at them. Everyone has rejected me in one way or another, I’m at the point where I’d like […]

It’s time to do it. I’m just delaying the inevitable. There is no way out that I am interested in. It’s just a matter of time before I pop myself. I hope sooner rather than later.

I used to say I loved life, I just demanded more of it. Now I just feel I hate the very fact of being alive. Other than a time machine, there is nothing I’d rather have than to die. I want out more than anything else in this world.

I am reading this book right now, and here is a 2-hour video by the book’s author. I believe this book has the potential to help me in my life. I wanted to share it with you all.

It is not so much about getting rich as it is about being the master of your own mind, destiny, and being happy and satisfied with life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmCtWskzmAQ