I’m feeling suicidal, idk what to do. I have no one to talk to. What should I do? Should I tough it out alone, I’m so sick of doing that. I need someone.
what are some of your guys’ experience with anti depressants. getting to that low point again the days are so hard to get through. it feels like being around people is making me depressed because Im around so many people but also so alone at the same time. I don’t understand why its so hard for me to talk to the people I want to talk to.
I was wondering if anyone has had any experience with going to a mental hospital for help with suicide and depression, I’ve had these thoughts for a while and its about time I get help. thx
Im so alone i have no friends at all not even online friends, ive had some online friends but that was a while ago. I cant remember the last time ive connected to anyone irl. I dont have very good social skills irl and im fucking shy as hell. Ive been in school since oct and have not made a single friend. I miss those 1 to 1 human interactions its so hard to go on everyday
I started a new smaller school back in October and basically its for kids with emotional and social problems. It is now the end of February and I haven’t made a single friend which I guess is kinda sad but I’m just really bad with social interactions. I basically sit at the corner seat and dont talk to anyone all day. There is this girl who loves anime (I also love anime) and I would say I have a really good chance with her but its so hard for me to talk to her because I hardly ever see her and shes not in any of my classes. I dont want to be some creep that says hi randomly in the hallway, is that creepy? I’m gonna guess it is because she dose not even know who I am. and even if I was given the opportunity to start a conversation with her I dont really know what to say.
just looking for advice
I’m 15 and I have zero friends and just want some one to talk to. I’ve never really had any friends/girlfriend. I fell like just killing myself idk what to do anymore.
I find it extremely difficult to actually make decent real life friends.
I’m 15 years old and all the “Real life friends” ive had up until this point have either used me or don’t care about me and make fun of me.
I made another post about most of my life and in that post I explained how I had cancer from when I was 9 up until I was 14. most of the people I know call me cancer boy and some people act so scared of me because they might catch my disease even though it is not contagious (obviously) and I do not have it any more.
they act as if im some disgusting disease
I’m that one kid that’s invited over sometimes and when I am invited its just so everyone can make fun of me. its not like there making fun of each other, its just me.
I hate it so much and its just not fair. I would do anything for a real friend but I do not know where to start.
It also dose not help that I’m very shy and sensitive. and people know I wont fight back so its easy for them to hurt me so much.
Thx for reading it would really help me out if you guys could give some tips or something
this anxiety is going to kill me
My name is jon im 15 and i guess i have social anxiety. i’ve always been very shy when I was younger and never really had any close friends. I went to school knowing I had no friends but I didn’t care because I really loved learning and that was the motivation I had for going. In the beginning of 4th grade I was diagnosed with leukemia (which is a type of cancer) and had to be taken out of school for 2 months. when I returned everyone acted so nice towards me for the rest of 4th and 5th grade and I still really loved school. In 6th grade I switched schools and got bullied ALOT for having cancer. I had no friends in this school and was losing my motivation and passion for learning. I would skip school at least once a week to stay home and do nothing all day. this is when I started to get social anxiety and I would not be able to wake up in the morning because I would be too scared to go back to that school and get judged/bullied by all most everyone. So in 7th grade my mom put me back into my old school, which was even worse. My old “friends” didnt say a word to me when I came back that year. It felt like everyone was avoiding me. I was still skipping school because I had no motivation to go anymore. I met this kid that i never talked to in 4th and 5th grade and he was really nice. we talked in school and on skype, but then all of a sudden he started acting so mean to me and getting other people to treat me like shit. In 8th grade he invited me over his house with 4 other boys for a sleepover just to make fun of me all night. I just wanted to call my parents so bad to take me home. I could not get away from the bulling and the torture and all this anxiety. i needed someone to talk to or help me. the person i needed never came. I swear I never did anything to these people. im really quite in real life and would never start a fight with anyone. I value other peoples feelings just as my own and would never want anyone to feel the way I have felt for the past 4 years of my life. In school when i was asked to read/present a project in front of the class my heart would start racing and It felt like I was gonna pass out. I could not read correctly because of this and everyone in the class would just sit there and laugh at me when it happened. The only way to get away was to stay home. I hardly graduated because I missed so many days of school. I felt like the only real way out was suicide. The summer right before high school i told myself this was my chance to make friends and start enjoying school again. but when i started high school i went for 2 weeks and didn’t make a single friend. I would just sit alone at lunch everyday for those 2 weeks then I decided I didn’t want to go to school anymore and wanted to be home schooled. One of the bullies from my old school was going to the same high school as me and once again he got everyone to hate me 2 weeks in. I was home schooled this year and I still have no friends and im really lonely. even though im not in school and don’t have these social panic attacks I really need a friend or someone to talk to. I just sit home all day and play games on my computer or watch anime, if I didn’t have those 2 thing s I would have probably killed myself by now. its kinda sad that the only things keeping me alive are completely fake. My parents and my therapist are forcing me to go back to high school this upcoming year. I dont think things are gonna work very well. I want the pain to stop but I don’t want to die. please help me. Sorry if I’m just rambling at this point I have not slept in 2 days because ive been so paranoid.