I came really close today. I methodically loaded the gun. Hands steady as I loaded it. I wasn’t hesitating. I really thought that i was going to go through with it. It was almost like I was working in a trance. Going through the rehersed motions. I clicked the safety off and steeled myself to do it. But I couldn’t pull the damn trigger. I just couldn’t do it. I looked around and sighed and realized I had failed again. I really don’t understand what the fuck is going on. My friends are jokes and my school is a synonym for misery. The only solace […]
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Death is the final destination. Who gives a flying fuck how we get there? Whether it be by suicide, natural causes, or some other obscure method, it all ends the same. So then, what do we do? How do we use this life? Do we live out our lives in misery and dread of that fateful day? Or perhaps enjoy ourselves up to the last? I don’t know. Maybe the answer lies in death. I don’t know. I suppose as your reading this, It would appear I’m just rambling on about things that far out of my understanding. If so, you guessed right. Which is […]
I am not a religous person. Plain and simple, but i support the church. The church does good things for people but has an odd premise. It demands complete faith, submission, and obedience to one higher power that controls all things. This Faith is blind for religoin. Do we really know if there is a god that we can submit to?
No we dont.
Interesting thing is, religions have been popping up and then getting crushed by one another. All claiming to be the true religion with the god/s with a capital “G”.
So, lets just for a moment, assume that religion is an elaborate rouse. Now remember, […]
I just dont feel motivated to do anything…
I feel too weak to end it
and too un motivated to change myself…
guess i’m just a sorry excuse for a person….