I’ve actually almost died a couple time but this ones been on my mind.
A bunch a years ago my neighbors house caught on fire. Our house, close as it was was in no danger of catching flames but it was night we were asleep and our house was filling with the fumes. I still hear his voice screaming when I think about it. The sound of his fists beating on our door violently. I was sick for a couple days after the fumes clear our house but I can’t shake the thought that I really wish he’d forgotten to wake us.
I want to be a drifter. I imagine well actually I know from similar experience that it totally sucks to have no food or shelter but the thought of the freedom pretty much doing what ever I want within reason. I just feel like walking no specific destination no specific reason I just want to get up go and not stop till I’m lucky enough to die or get killed. I’m tired of looking back
It’s getting harder and harder to just laugh it off. I can’t take life seriously because real life is fucking boring aside from working to cover food, shelter and basic life necessities there’s nothing to enjoyable. I used to go out and do what ever just for the adrenaline but I’m always tired my seance of humor has gone from dry wit to just plain dark. It’s all just a gam to me if I don’t start playing it different I’m just going to sign out. I’m incapable of forcing myself to care anymore
How do you deal with anger. Anger is an incredible understatement how do you deal with life when you have a constant flow of hatred in your veins. It gets bad like stabbing pain in the gut bad. You just want to scream and yell and savagely hit everything around you. But that’s not right there are rules if you don’t follow them they just cage you agin……FUCK YOU EDDY YOU BALD PAIN IN THE ASS.
I want forget I want to forget everything. But I can’t
We’re born only to die. Everything in between is just filler. There is no god the cosmos were sprung randomly and reality is merely an illusion made by chemicals that interact with our brains. Life is meaningless unless you choose to give it meaning. Society is just a game that we as social primates are hard wired to want to play for survival. But if we’re well beyond the means of just surviving then what are we doing but waiting to die.
Now see here. I’m not trying to talk anybody out of killing themselves but have some fucking pride. Is life really so horrible that you’d make yourself a pitiful statistic. Have a productive suicide I’m not talking crazy jihad shit no far from it if you really want to die then you’ll have no difficulty leaving your life behind and running away. Fuck your friends. Fuck your family you want to die anyways right go on the adventure of a life time have fun do what you want and have no regrets. After all if everything goes to shit just kill yourself. Me I’m going […]
So wait is every suicidal person a mopey 14 who’s still a virgin what the hell is so wrong with the damned world that children want to die really what in fucks name is going on with the world.
You wants to die. There’s no profound reason really. Doubt there is a standard set as to how one should live their adolescent life so it’s rather difficult to say whether or not you had an appropriate childhood. Your just tired. You can’t think straight, Your memory is shot and You can’t say you’ve ever truely loved another. Your mind is a constant cycle of nonsense and paradoxes, You don’t even know the truth anymore. All you know is if this is life you want little if nothing at all to do with it. It’s all a joke. A cruel prank played by fate. Your […]