It’s odd. My default mood is, “meh.” The only other things I feel are mild sadness, anger and occasionally happiness. Literally numb to everything. I didn’t cry when I found my cat dead in the garden. I didn’t cry when I found my mother dead in bed. Or at her funeral. Of course I was sad, but I couldn’t feel anything. Honestly, and this sounds stupid, but it upsets me.
When something bad happens I think, “this is really sad” but no emotion comes. All congratulations are completely fake. To even try and celebrate seems fake. I feel less than human. It’s creepy.
I hate […]
Author