I’m not cut out to be a mom
he would be much better off without me in his life as dad says im not there. My 12 hour 3 days a week job makes me an absent mom yet pays most of the bills. I’m the enemy I’m the devil . I wouldn’t be going through this if I hadn’t chickened out years ago. Its all a lie, the answer is that it doesn’t get better. Wishing you were dead won’t cut it…God won’t answer you so don’t waste your time. You have to take things into your own hands.