I wish  i was able to just give into the feeling’s and what i want to actually do, I’m not scared of death..I dont actually know whats stopping me? I’ve come to realize that drinking is only good if you dont let yourself come down from the buzz. I felt so alive and better last night when i was partying, i put on a pretty good front i make everyone laugh you barely ever see me without a smile on my face, if only my friend knew the real me, the one that came home last night and cut for an hour and a half last […]
kari
I’m so lost in my mind i don’t know what to do any more dude, my thought’s are literally eating me alive. I just got out of the Pych ward at the hospital after being in there for 72 hour’s, I just dont really feel like it helped me much at all. I wish i could feel the way i did when i was on my anti-depressent’s all the time, but its not realistic i cant take drugs for the rest of my life, so i need to just deal with it i guess, but this is the most discusting feeling ever and i dont […]
I’m 18 year’s old..i’ve always had suicidal thought, i was a cutter for 3 year’s then started doing cocaine to try to fix the fucked up feeling’s in me. I stopped cutting and doing drug’s and got onto anti-depressent’s they seemed to work really well i finally felt what i assumed normal people feel like, but because im going to be 19 in a week or so im going to be cut off my mom’s drug plan witch is making the anti-depressents way to expensive to afford so im slowly being weined off them and im back to feeling my old self, and i hate it. […]