Weed is the only thing that makes me feel like staying alive. The only thing that makes me feel like there is a reason to live. Its depressing and happy at the same time. Maybe when smash comes out I’ll feel a bit better. Maybe I’ll be able to play baseball next year and it’ll make me feel better. Idk. But sober me just wants to die all the God damn fucking time
lazyjake
Once more I leave my house (this time at 3A.M) because of my brother screaming and breaking things. This time I’m at a playground at my old school. Got me thinking and confirming the fact that I have to move out ASAP. Or kill myself, one or the other. There’s too much on my mind to spill out. Ugh.
I’m gonna try my best to enjoy September and October until I finally kill myself in November
Since my last post in May I’ve gained and then ultimately lost friends because of how terrible of a person I am. I really don’t know why I try anymore. Maybe I give mmyself false confidence that I can actually be friends with people and have long standing friendships or have people that actually want to talk to me instead of just pitying me. I also started doing online school but I’m still fucking depressed so I have no energy to do work. My mom has gotten a lot more depressed and everything in my personal has gotten worse. So has everything else in the […]
Its been a year or something since i was on here. Not that it got better. Just that i didnt feel the need to come on here. I shut myself up. I was getting good at being quiet too. But now i feel the need to post on social media or in my story, but i dont wanna bother my friends. So i guess ill be posting on here about how everything is terrible. Yay.
I’m losing everyone. Everything. Soon distractions will no longer work. I wish I had the fucking balls to end it
“The universe is expanding and I don’t feel a damn thing.”
I’m not sure how often I’ll use this site and post on it. I go on here quite a lot and I’ve found many posts relating to my situation. I feel guilty and selfish whenever I’m on here because i feel as if the people on here actually have problems that they need to share. I’m just a dumb angsty teen who has no real reason to be upset.
If I do decide to post more on here you will probably see my very conflicting emotions. One minute I’ll be self hating the other I’ll be hating on others.
Sorry for wasting your time
~ Jake