Lost_Again
All I ever wanted was to be something, not an object to be raped and beaten in the world, I am going to die soon…but the gunmans hand, and while I feel some regret to this bullet, I feel the freedom of the pain all my friends have ever tried for nothing..
Fuck them..they left me cold and darkend in my time of need..raped and beaten on the sidewalk..god how that day changed everything..goodbye I dont care, a 22 has my name on it
Heres my gun, heres my soul..Both rdy to leave the chamber they inhabit, and I know that it means nothing in the end of the day..No one will care, and I honestly dont want them to, why would I want them to? This is going to happen..there is no escaping it..IM tired of being like this, and I know it wont get better it never has after all these yrs..Hold you friend in his lap when he bleds to death..Look ur mother in the eye when she says she never wanted you and that if a doctor would of done the surgery you wouldnt be […]
O god..I am there, thank you for finally giving me the courage..I have been wanting to do this for so long, welcome any pain then this one..A gay diabetic..20 years old..and yet to old to be raped, held a dying friend, beaten by my so called loved ones..Well this curse will be my savior as it plunges into my blood to release me of this..
Im so angry and so full of this..I HATE YOU, that goes to all my so called friend who laughed when I was rapped for being where I wasnt suppose to..my fault I guess..w/e…when he broke my arm the man who […]
I think I tried to deal, maybe it is testament to my failures..My curse will become my savior, as I look into this chambor, my savior is clear in this caliber, Thank You for trying.
I look at my gun and I am so tired, Im 22…been feeling this way for so long, Ive tried everything and it does nothing..I really have no idea why I even registered, will someone care? Why should they? Will it mean something when they desert me like everyone has every done. I dont fear death…hence it adds to my confusion why I am here, if not fear it then why go? I have nothing to live for..just more blood and more pain.
Im tired of getting my ass kicked because I am gay.
Im tired of having no friend or friends to merely use me.
Im tired […]