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Being alive is Torturous :((

by lostsoul21817 9/23/2018

written by lostsoul21817

Ahh I hate being in this fucked up place.It’s gonna be a year of suicidal and depressive emotions and for fuck’s sake it has never got better.I always face problems in one way or the other.

I can’t bear to be here any longer. It’s so torturous and depressing for me…y’all feel what I say? I just wanna fucking disappear from this shithole.

Ofcourse I always have the option of killing my self,but I’m worried about my parents who are the only one’s who care about me.Please take me away from this miserable hell, I want to die :(((((((

9/23/2018 1 comment

A year of Suicidal Ideation

by lostsoul21817 8/21/2018

written by lostsoul21817

August 21,
Today is the day where it all started.The day where my seemingly happy life started to shatter and fail miserably.Until the age of 17,I’ve only heard of depression but I’ve never experienced it.One year later,I’m heavily depressed and on the verge of suicide.It’s funny how life changes in just a matter of days.

One year of living with depression has taught me many things in life and it also taught me not to trust any Fuckin’ bastards and bitches.The pain may fade away,but you will carry the bruises until your very last breath.For a few weeks,I’ve been able to suppress my suicidal ideation for […]

8/21/2018 2 comments

Im gonna end it all

by lostsoul21817 5/8/2018

written by lostsoul21817

Im so sick and fucking tired of trying to get through the day.People jus get on my nerves and give me hard times in one way or the other.Im so tired of self motivatin me constantly evryday to keep me frm commiting suicide.But I jus cant take it anymore..Life is harsh and hard.College fkin sucks ….

I will probably end my life next month after I meet up with my family and school friends.Ive been feelin suicidal for the past 8 months or so and i dont really see the point of living.And im feelin too bad bcoz I was really happy and satisfied with my […]

5/8/2018 33 comments

Why am I suffering so much?

by lostsoul21817 4/2/2018

written by lostsoul21817

Why can’t this pain stop ? Why do have to always go through drama,fake ppl and bullshit.I fuckin hate this world and would have died if not for my family.Everything was fine until 17yrs of age.From the time I started higher studies,life started goin downhill.

Sometimes Wish I’ve never been born at all.Fuck this place im livin in right nw.There is little hope once I finish uni,but its so hard to go thru it all.I still hav abt 3yrs left.I feel like I dont belong here,the ppl ovr here suck and are bullies.Fkin hate the hell im livin in rn

If there’s someone calld God, I […]

4/2/2018 1 comment

Wish I had a time machine to go back to the past

by lostsoul21817 3/15/2018

written by lostsoul21817

I wish I had a time machine so that I can go back in time and stop myself from doing major life changing decisions.Why is this world so fucked up for God’s sake!?? Why do ppl hav to be such assholes to each other.Wish I was never born into this fuckin world.

Last year I was this completely happy person who wantd to live life to the fullest,who had so many dreams and aspirations.I jus had like my life plannd out.But ever since leaving my native,I feel so pathetic about myself.I feel like all my energy has been drained away.I just feel Like i don’t fkin […]

3/15/2018 2 comments

My life has turned upside down and pushed me to the edge

by lostsoul21817 2/21/2018

written by lostsoul21817

Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined that I would be writing here about my depression. I honestly never knew the impact of depression before I had it.

It all started when I joined college. During my school days, I was one of the most popular students and held various leadership titles. But now when I look at myself in the mirror, all I can do is regret about myself. I’ve joined college in a foreign country miles away from my family and friends. Plus this is also where my brother studied. I was really excited about everything and did pretty well for a […]

2/21/2018 8 comments