when my stuff i ordered online gets here, I’m done. my mom is making fun of the way i am feeling, calling my dad and my aunt telling them I can’t clean my apartment, I’m sorry I’m depressed and my mom is making fun of me for it
hanging is supposed to be a sure fire method, I was putting all the pressure on my carotid and jugular veins, and nothing. sat like that for a half hour and nothing. nobody cares about me in real life. my family only speaks to me if I speak to them first. the one I love, who is truly the only person that’s Ever made me happy, won’t come home and let me help him. I wish I had someone who cared about me half as much as I care about him. but no, he ‘belongs’ in Kentucky, where he ‘doesn’t fit in’ and we both […]
I have been hesitating on texting his aunt for help… but I had a dream about him last night… and woke up crying. got in the shower, still crying, and the whole time I was in there, I just kept saying ‘i have to text sam. I have to have help in getting him out of that situation’ so I texted her this
Sam..this is ali. I am super worried about ryan. I know I saw in his phone he told you he was done with me… I went to visit him over a month ago.. we reconciled… them he went flip floppy on […]
I don’t like to talk on the phone, just text, and I love sending pics! I have so many of all kinds, funny, depressing, everything.
email me tawneesmommy@gmail.com
I am often lonely if I’m not at work
I love it. it’s legal and makes me sleepy and high as hell depending how much little pink pills I take. just three enough to make me not walk straight and see things moving that aren’t… I hope they slowly kill me
to be awake right now. or ever. I just want to die without him here:( I have never felt so hopeless in my 24 miserable years on this stupid planet. I want to take benadryl to sleep, but what if he calls me, asks me to come get him…. but who am I kidding I’m meant to be stuck in this stupid apartment all alone forever. I just wish I were never born
the other night I was going to hang myself but he called me… he doesn’t have his phone anymore so he had steal his dad’s for a few minutes I want him to come home i haven’t heard from him since now I just want to die again:'(
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. tawneesmommy@gmail.com for full story. I’ve been in process of typing all I’ve been through in life but it’s taking me a long time….:(I am so alone
me and Ryan kinda jumped into things very fast. He moved in with me after two weeks, but we were happy as can be. I was always weary that he was lying to me, because that’s just what I’ve always been used to. But everything he said always added up. He was extremely supportive of everything, including my mental illnesses. we were in everything together. Ryan comes from a very rough child hood. Him & his siblings were taken away from his parents when I believe he was three. He found his mom when he was 18, and moved in with her. I actually met […]
I’m planning on it. girl at work gave me whole bottle of caffeine pills. didn’t know I’m suicidal. stole some vodka from my dad’s liquor cabinet. tied noose…. I’m so done.
are a fucking joke. we didn’t ask to be born into this hell they call life. let us fucking die if we want. why would we call a number that’s just gonna try to talk us out of it? and the loony bin I’ve been there like seven times since 2005.. every time I left there…. I STILL WANTED TO DIE
please email me someone I am so alone. no friends, my family doesn’t understand, guys always leave me, no one can handle me. I’m stuck living all alone with my two cats Elmo and tawnee.. I’ve wanted to die since I was 3. I’ll be 25 in December. tawneesmommy@gmail.com
been trying to die since I was three, I tried to hang myself by a rope on a swing set. my entire life has been depressing. I knew happiness for a short time but that person gave up on me and left. every time I’ve overdosed, someone always found me. now that I am stuck living alone, no one should find me right away, but I don’t have the access to those prescription pills anymore. I want to try asphyxiation or strangling but having trouble figuring out how to tie these knots. also don’t rope but have scarfs, belts, shoelaces, bed sheets clothes…help
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