hanging is supposed to be a sure fire method, I was putting all the pressure on my carotid and jugular veins, and nothing. sat like that for a half hour and nothing. nobody cares about me in real life. my family only speaks to me if I speak to them first. the one I love, who is truly the only person that’s Ever made me happy, won’t come home and let me help him. I wish I had someone who cared about me half as much as I care about him. but no, he ‘belongs’ in Kentucky, where he ‘doesn’t fit in’ and we both are fucking miserable. I’ve wanted to die the majority of my life except when he was here with me. I can’t bring myself to do anything besides lay here and cry and hope he finds a phone to call me but what does that matter? he’d rather stay with his dad that he just met who couldn’t care for him as a child. fuck this life. I need a sure fire way to die. and no I don’t care about who will be ‘affected’ maybe then they’ll see that this is not how you treat a person. if I had a gun i would have been gone a long time ago
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I honestly don’t know what to say, I was really hoping he’d agree to come back to you; the love he would receive from you, you really want the best for him, I know that. You can understand that I can’t help you to find a way to end it, I care too much, but I can’t think of any options, are you certain this really is it or is there any hope however small. Suicide is very hard to acheive and no way is totally certain, don’t try anything at the moment please, wait a few days, I know you want to go but please, you can talk and look for a way at the same time. I don’t want you to go but don’t know how to keep you going at this time. Just want you to know i’m thinking of you, Ni.
I’ve been trying since I was three. I had the plastic bag along with the ligature but then my dad texted me saying he’d pick up my medication for me so I have to wait till after that to try again. I feel not worthy enough for Ryan. he’s the only person who has ever made me happy. why in the hell did he even call me yesterday? he probably told his aunt I was a liar or something she won’t return my texts. it’s not fair I give this man all of my love and have nothing to fucking show for it. I bet he never ever calls again. last week he ‘missed me’ and ‘loved me’ but I guess not. I don’t fucking want anyone else. I want the guy who once took my pain away. and now the pain is back ten times worse than before
You are worthy of Ryan, he just doesn’t see it, he maybe being pulled between wanting you to wanting to stay where he is by others, I don’t know. You can’t go on like this, you’re tearing yourself apart. I know you don’t want anyone else which stops me from the usual ‘you’ll love again’ line; even if you did, Ryan will always be in your thoughts, you may just be able to move on but it’ll take some time and I know you doubt this. Please excuse me for saying this, I know you don’t want to hear it, but you’d do the same if the situation was reversed, I have little else I can say, I can’t say anything of comfort to you but I am here.
I can’t wait till my dad goes on vacation end of this month I can use his garage to do so many things
would you like to email me… is a lot easier than keep refreshing this page. I actually found this site by googling ways to kill yourself
You replied twice before me, I’ll e-mail you but I can’t help you with methods, but I’m willing to be there for you at this time.
Though each persons pain is their own and I don’t understand your situation, even if you do lose your boyfriend there are other people out there. Killing yourself before you get a chance to find that love seems premature. I’m sure you are hurting now and it feels like the end of the world, but it isn’t. Hopefully you hang in there.
I sound like a hypocrite I guess since I will most likely end it in the near future, but I just hate seeing others kill themselves because my dad did it. Your family and friends would be hurt, it’s your decision, maybe stick around for awhile you never know what is out there.
I don’t have friends… my family just care about pissing me off. I will never give up on him even after I give up on myself
and no… the love I have for him is nothing like the two other guys ive been in love with. the best way out for me seems to be in my dad’s garage… putting a hose in my tail pipe and putting other end in car. I sure hope they’re not flying to vacation other wise under won’t work because I can’t pull my car into the garage if both cars are already in there and I don’t have their keys. otherwise I’ll just make the cleaning supplies thing where I breathe it in. or maybe there is a higher way to hang myself for drop hanging.
Seems like a helluva way to go out. I’ve been alone and in utter darkness my whole life and really don’t have much hope of that changing my situation is what it is, but your situation seems hopeful to some degree. I know it sucks losing someone you love, but if you were able to find love once I am sure you can find it again.
I know pain is pain I’ve realized that and each person has a certain level they can take before they are at their limit, it just seems very premature. You might think your family only cares about pissing you off, but in reality I bet despite everything they still love you, family is family you don’t just change that. I’m sure you will find more love out there if you look. I hope you don’t kill yourself though.
I do not want anyone else! I have never felt so sure of that. I just want to know that he loves me. I’d rather live on the streets out there than be here
The car thing rarely works because car exhausts are so clean nowadays, the cleaning supplies (choline gas) in enclose space is better but still not very successful and both these can damage you but you still live, sorry.
If you want to know that he loves you, don’t you think there are better methods than killing yourself? If you are gone how will you know or find out if he loves you?
he will see what being alonE has done to me
So the intent is to hurt him by ruining whatever chance you have to finding more love (which you are very capable of). Did he leave you for good? You said something about him moving because of his father, did he move far away? If so is the problem in your relationship the long distance? Maybe he still cares for you, it’s just he wanted to see his dad. As someone who has no dad I can understand wanting to see your dad. Maybe you need to have a long talk with him and not kill yourself.
his dad couldn’t even care for him as a child he got taken away and adopted. . I hate his dad for stealing him from me. he’s like four and a half hours away I went to visit him end of july he wanted me to and everything seemed great then two days later he dumped me again. I don’t want any other guy even if I did they all leave me and can’t handle me. I just want back the only happiness I’ve ever known
I am sure there is still happiness out there for you, it just seems like there is none for you at the moment. He dumped you, then find someone else who is more deserving of you. You have the rest of your life ahead of you, it would be a shame to throw it away for that. There are a lot of other people out there, you aren’t alone and there are many others like you. I don’t want to sound cliche but it’s simply true. There is a latin phrase I am reminded of when I think of your situation.
Illegitimi non carborundum
it means don’t let the bastards grind you down. Don’t let other people cause you to throw your precious life away.
the only time I was truly happy in my pathetic life was when I was with him. if I can’t have him I will not change my mind. he’s the only thing worth it to me
If you want to become email-budies or skype budies let me know. Im going through suicidal thoughts also but i dont want other people to suffer from this so id like to help you put if I can and you to help me out as well.
It doesnt have to be me but contact someone helpfull from this site. And help each other out. With this world of interconnectedness its silly to just rely on your family and geographicly close friends for comfort. Keep that soul of yours beating a little while longer its just as beautiful as the rest of ’em.
I don’t have friends… my family couldn’t give two shits about me. all I had was Ryan. but I’m not enough for him just like I’ve never been enough for anyone
Do you have anyone you can talk to? Anyone you trust, or someone you think will be supportive? I understand you are in immense pain and it feels overwhelming, all I can say is it will pass to some degree. I lost my dad and brother and while the feeling of pain and loss remains over time it doesn’t get as intense. I honestly think you will find someone who deserves you, so you may think he’s the end all and be all, but truth is he isn’t. Don’t end your life over some dude. This is coming from a dude, we aren’t worth killing yourself over.
I truly don’t want anyone else. he’s the only person that’s Ever made me happy. no one wants to be with a psycho *****. my family doesn’t care. I don’t have friends. I don’t want friends. I want either Ryan or death
I’m sorry I couldn’t help you lovemyshihtzu, you know how hard I tried, I want you to keep going and I’m afraid for you more than ever. In these short days I’ve got to know something of you, I know how hard you’ve taken this break-up but what a pretty and intelligent person you are. It’s just a shame you can’t get over it, but you know I’ll be here for you and you can always contact me.
I am nothing without him I don’t care about myself I carte about him
I understand what kind of site this is, and we all have that moment in our lives when we say enough, I just hate seeing people kill themselves, and your situation doesn’t seem hopeless.
I’m feeling extremely despondent after a breakup myself. I don’t know what to do. I feel like my life has lost all direction, hope, and meaning. And worst of all, it was all my fault. Just writing to say that you’re not alone and I know how you feel. And it is truly the worst.
everything is my fault too. I just wish he’d open his eyes and realize who’s been there for him since I met him before it’s too late. and it’s going to be too late very soon. ordered something online that better work