I have tried to hang myself twice till now but in vain.Everytime I gather the courage to kill myself,I chicken out and start crying.Life holds onto me like a disease.I have received some very positive support here from “Vertrag” and “another failure”,they have been very nice to me.But its all over for me,I haven’t done a single good thing in my life yet,I m 23 and I can’t even take a proper mature decision.Everyday is worse than the previous one.Things r looking really very bad for me.Life is over for me.My mind is dead,its just the miserable heart that keeps beating.
I got myself drunk,but…..but due to some reason I just couldn’t kick the chair.I stood on the chair for an hour and kept crying but I just couldn’t kick it.I was scared,I am a very weak person.This was my second attempt.My first one ended up pretty much the same way.I am a master in fucking things up.I mean I messed up my life really bad.I take stupid decisions all the time.I mean I am one dumb jackass.
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