I got myself drunk,but…..but due to some reason I just couldn’t kick the chair.I stood on the chair for an hour and kept crying but I just couldn’t kick it.I was scared,I am a very weak person.This was my second attempt.My first one ended up pretty much the same way.I am a master in fucking things up.I mean I messed up my life really bad.I take stupid decisions all the time.I mean I am one dumb jackass.
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Being scared doesnt make you weak, it makes you human.
Thank u,I guess its kind of comforting.
P.s : i forgot to say it before
Perhaps failing in both attempts is a sign that you are given another chance to do something extraordinary in your life.
P.p.s : we all make mistakes, take stupid decisions, mess things up, BUT thats life. Life screws us over and i guess all we can do is to play along and turn things over when the time is right
Thank u for warm support,”another failure”.I don’t know your real name but whoever you are,a person will be lucky and honoured to be your friend or your companion.Now,u said to me that it is another chance,well,I say that its me chickening out.I have messed my life up pretty good,I mean its a gigantic mess and I believe I have to punish myself for this.I royally fucked my life up.I haven’t taken a single good decision ever in my life and I am fully responsible for all the mess I have created.I don’t have any friends,never had,never will.Nobody wants company of a dumb idiot like me.
Thankyou, i, too, is honoured to receive such compliment from you:)
i knoww, i know you feel the opposite way. But find courage in this hard time, find someone or something to be your source of courage, find your anchor.
All i can say is, no matter how big you think you have messed your life, there is no excuse to punish yourself. Your situation is hard enough, and punishing yourself will only add another pressure. *on the bright side, you know you have responsibility on the decisions youve made so far, at least you dont ignore things so yeay for that *that sounds really wrong but wht im trying to say is a good thing believe me, i swear to god its a good thing**
Starting from now on, try to consider every steps you are going to make okay? You still have the chance to fix things up, trust me.
You HAD friends, you HAVE friends, and you WILL have friends. You are not a dumb idiot, you are one precious human being
Thank you again mate!,you really r a very bright person.But the thing is its all over for me.I am a spent force.I can’t do SHIT!.I will fuck things up again,I am a very stupid fellow.I dropped out of college,I got no job,no friends.I lock myself up in my apartment for days.So you see,I did a fine job of messing my life up.This is the only thing I am good at,that is fucking things up.I have no future,no hope and worst of all no faith.I haven’t eaten anything for like 3 days straight.I am living on vodka only.I really am a great idiot.Luke,The Loser.
It’s hard to figure things out especially when you’re feeling down. But let me tell you my secret, everytime i feel like i’ve screwed things up, i take a deep breath, and think. What should i do? What’s the best for me right now?
this is just a suggestion, but perhaps you can try something like seeing a therapist, or pray, meditate, something that can give you peace, or even attend a support group.
Have a little faith in you, even if its just a pinch. The only one who can bring change to your life is you.
hmm, i know you are not going to listen to me, and it is going to sound reallyreally cliché, but hearing tht you havent eat, i encourage to eat something other than drinking. Afterall, it can be the first step to become the better you.
and NO, i refuse to believe that you are what you say you are
Hey Luke,
Sorry to hear that you’re in such a state. And like anotherfailure said, not going through with it does not mean that you are weak or stupid. It’s the opposite really. It takes an insane amount of courage and strength to keep going through the day when you don’t want to.
You said that you feel like a failure because you made some decisions in life that you regret such as dropping out, but everyone makes mistakes. Everyone. Some big, some small. It doesn’t make you a bad person. As long as there is something that you can even imagine wanting to achieve, you should see if you can bring yourself to go for it. After all, compared to ending it all, is there really anything you can lose?
And you say no one would want to be your friend, but you seem like a great guy to me. I don’t know you, but you seem like a person who has been through a hell of a lot and can still be nice to others. There aren’t that many people in the world who can boast the same.
Anyway, I hope something brings a bit of cheer into your day soon.
Thank you very much “Vertrag”,you r a great person.I am sure this is not your real name,is it? Well,you got that last part right,something is bringing a bit of cheer in my days,it comes in a glass bottle,it looks like water but it tastes like piss,it goes by the name “vodka”.And it is probably the only thing that is keeping me alive.You r a good person “Vertrag”,u don’t know me but at least you r sympathetic to me.Thank u.
Thank you again “another failure”,u have been very supportive.Well,like u said I tried to reassess everything and I realized that how much fucked up everything it,I have nothing other then regrets left in me.Thank u.
Tell you what, let me help you okay *i may not be much of a help but i’ll try my best*. Talk to me, and i’ll listen.
Ok,thank u very much.Actually,u have been quite a help to me,”another failure”.Today for the first time after 2 weeks,I went out of my apartment,dumped my remaining vodka and brought myself some fresh orange juice.But I still want to kill myself just haven’t found the courage yet.Thank u again,for sparing time to read my post.I have also published a new post,did u read it?
That’s an improvement right. Keep on doing that, step by step.
hell, dont try to find courage to end your life. Find courage for you to keep living.
Yes, and im glad that you find my comment comforting. However, why do you so eager to end your life?
It must not be your time. Follow your gut!
Thank you again “another failure”.I have fucked up my life very badly.I dropped out of college,I have no job,I literally fell of the grid.I stopped getting out of my apartment.I have no friends no relationships.I don’t have the strength and mental stamina to do anything in life.I have lost faith in myself and everything.My mind is already dead,it is just the miserable heart that keeps beating.Anyways for helping me with your warm supporting words.Take care.
From my point of view *idk if im wrong*, you dont let yourself to be helped. Let yourself to feel happy and better, have a little positivity.
If you ever need someone to talk to, im here, you can also add my kik if you want to hoping we can talk you problems out
Thank you very much “another failure”.You have been really supportive to me.I am sorry I don’t know what is “kik”? I m not very tech savy,another of my flaws.Take care.