i am considering suicide strongly today and i need to know what is the best way to do it. What would you recommend and do i need to leave a note behind?
People have told me a lot of stories about rape.
They’ve told me how to be careful when I walk alone at night,
And how men in trench coats come out of dark alleys.
They’ve told me to kick them in the groin and run,
To scream for help.
People who can calmly tell you how they were almost caught,
How a stranger followed them down a sidewalk and made a grab,
And how they fought back and won.
How the offender’s in jail and their life is back on track
how happy they are.
But no one talks about how they didn’t fight.
About how they […]
You don’t feel pain
Not at first
All you feel is betrayal
You can’t think
You can’t move
You can’t breath
You can’t scream
You can’t even cry
You want to but you can’t
Then when it’s done
All you can think is WHY ME!
You never feel clean
You cry all the time now
When you don’t you bleed
And the pain starts to settle in
And you can’t stop thinking
“I could have done more”
“I could have stopped it”
“It’s all my fault”
You hate yourself more
With every breath
You feel like it should be your last
That you are nothing
If each cut could speak. If each scar could scream. They’d tell you the reason their there. Upon my arms, legs, stomach hips…every part. They’d tell you it’s for many reasons. Memories of the abuse, the rape replays in my mind. Voices shout say it was my fault…that I should abuse myself. Maybe I’m so use to it, that it’s the one thing I know well. My reasons..are one to many. Abused, pain. anger, hate….some even a suicide attempt or two. But there are a million reasons, if only they could speak…they’d tell you
Lock the key to my heart. Never again will I let my pain start. Its now just healing, no sorrow to show, that love can hurt. But I will grow into the women that I know. Sometimes love will let you go…Hold your breath, forget,forgive. And it will show he’ll miss you dearly when you go. Be the person your happy to be. Until death takes part, when you’ll be let free. Freedom does last, it does show. Everyone has their opinions, so just let it go. Tomorrow is another chance to show to just have fun being me, until ill let go. Sometimes I […]
were is the peeps that say they care? give me a reason , just a little bit is enough…if this is a suicide project…as its called, why is there people that judge others? im new here and the past 48 hours i have seen alot of judgement…i thought this would be a place were you can be yourself…were you can talk openly about the scars on your soul…were you can get support in order not to take that next fix… a place were a lost girl like me, could feel i belong..for once in my life…
DIRTY – I feel so DIRTY. DIRTY, UNCLEAN, in capitals. Dont touch me. Dont anyone, ever touch me, EVER again. Will I ever feel CLEAN? Scrubbing, scrubbing at my skin, Trying to remove the filth that is within Help me, inside I am screaming This is NOT bad dreaming This is REAL I hurt, inside – I hurt In my body – I hurt In my head – I hurt In my life – I now hurt When will it stop? When will it STOP. My life feels wrong now I cannot think straight I cannot feel straight I dont feel right anymore So what […]
i wish i could see the light…people say were not broken, just bent…but nights like these i feel like im shattered into a million pieces..how does a person overcome abuse…when all people choose to do is turn a blind eye?…what is left fighting for, when there is nobody willing to fight for you??…i keep taking another shot, to help me dissociate more from the feelings inside, but when i sober up, im just this messed up girl all over again..sick cycle…pretending is so xausting, im not sure how much longer i can take this…
im new on here… i need assurance that there is someone out there that actually cares…coz nothing make sense now…and im tired