The doors are closing in my life and I guess the opportunities I’ve let slip haunt me and everything else that is being pursued I am not doing it 100%. I want to be different I want to be unique but I end up feeling best a peace alone but I don’t have the motivation to push through my lazy barrier. I breeze through leave things last minute and don’t have respect for myself but I feel like sometimes I kiss ass to others. in a movie I would break out do something push the barrier but I’m just alone right now with no one […]
metamorphosis
got kicked out for the first time I don’t know what to do Ive got 4g and I guess ill live.
things are different knowing that my family don’t. love me or maybe they just don’t get me
ive got exams on Monday which are important to I can’t drink or get high because I need to concentrate
any body got tips for rough sleep
talking doesn’t solve anything and I want to find a way to get better but the old way never works and im too scared to find a new one
certain ideas or assumptions in humanity must be true for humanity to think they are happy,
in the psychology of depression Aaron beck said that we believe three things to keep us happy and without them we are in
a long term period depressed.
these three things are;
I must be approved or I am worthless.
I must do well or very well or I am worthless.
the world must give me happiness or I will die.
the hypothesis is that disappointment from not having these things leads to disappointment in the self and depression as stated by Aaron beck. […]
is depression an state of mental illness or a biological illness
I feel in the day on a human flight mode fighting with a sadness inside and an exterior which secretes a lie of joy to others which really isn’t there.
However from where ever you are reading this can you relate to me when you get into bed and feel the inevitability of death, your subconscious and that voice in your head can finally talk to you and tell you that you know you feel like shit and that you feel like no mater what the stuff you do even in glimmers of true happiness you will inevitably be dead. Do you ever plan […]
will people actually reach out to me? are people going to hear my cries? its far fetched but I just wish there was someone anonymous person out there to hear my pain and help me out, I guess thats why I am here.
I lost everyone I loved and I managed to get them back but theres an artificial feeling now and I don’t know what to do, I feel wrapped in this old world and everything is fake and I have no one but myself to blame.
this is my first post and I hope by the end on this I can find hope