trulymindless1

So two people from here I’ve talked to for the past 3 years are no longer messaging me at all. Idk what I was even expecting tbh. I cared for them both so much, but in the end, all I could’ve done was try to be there for them both. Now, with the other person I deeply cared for potientally attempting this morning while I was at work unable to try to persuade them one last time to plesse try to get help from someone who’s around, I feel a bit empty.

Idk. I’m trying so damned hard to make something of myself. To get to […]

She attempted while we were chatting on the phone.

I was fairly angry with her, trying to persuade her not to go through with it. Angry and concerned.

She’s been crying nonstop the past few hours, while throwing up and what not.

She finally called someone, but I’m just heartbroken.

All I can do is console her as best I can.

Can’t go visit her, no actual hugs, no kisses on the cheek, nothing.

Listened to her bawl her eyes out.

I feel so useless atm.

Hello again. To whomever is reading this, I geniunely hope things are at the very least, stable for you. Unsure as to why I’m unable to sleep but here I am. It’s been a while again. Things once again feel different here.

I’m not too sure why I feel as detached as I do currently. I feel so far away from all the goings on in general, it’s a bit unsettling. All the changes and updates and everything, I feel so old compared to the young teen fresh out of school headed to college. It’s odd that I manage to keep finding my way back here. […]

Didn’t last too long off the site. Found myself reading posts in the general section again. Not too sure how I’m feeing currently. In another rough patch atm. Jobless and struggling to find another before months end…

I figured I’d post just to get it out of my system. I’m okay. Just… okay. Went back a few days, saw some familiar usernames still around. It’s weird. I’ve been on and off posting here the past four years, and I don’t know how to feel about things, about a lot of things.

I didn’t have the heart to start completely fresh and blend into the background as a […]