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by witheringdaisies 11/23/2015

written by witheringdaisies

I don’t know what to do anymore. Each day becomes harder to live through. I keep telling myself to just go through it one hour at a time. How could I do it when I can’t even sit still for an hour?

This stupid sickness is the cause of everything. I wish I could just ask doctors to surgically remove my intestines or something.

It feels like life is putting the joke on me, when I think I’m ready to die, it gives me a couple reasons to live, and when I live through it, it gives me more reasons to die and the cycle goes on.

As […]

11/23/2015 0 comment

VENT POST

by witheringdaisies 11/18/2015

written by witheringdaisies

I hate feeling so incredibly happy at the start of the day only to feel so down by the end of it.

I woke up yesterday feeling hopeful about a new day. Listening to upbeat music and making good breakfast. After previous night’s failed attempt, I felt a little better about myself and thought that maybe everything’s gonna be alright.

I met up with my bestfriend before going to school, to atleast calm my nerves and reduce anxiety. She told me how she got extra money as educational assistance from the local gov’t, I was pretty excited about it too since I could use the money. (tbh […]

11/18/2015 7 comments

All this pain is gonna be invisible

by witheringdaisies 11/17/2015

written by witheringdaisies

I heard this song on the radio again this morning. Last night, I was contemplating whether I’d do “it” now, I just fell asleep crying. Now I’m on my way to school with this song stuck in my head, it kinda makes me feel better. So yeah, Have a good day! 🙂

(i don’t know if the video would embed, i’m on mobile :P)

11/17/2015 2 comments

Signs (?)

by witheringdaisies 11/15/2015

written by witheringdaisies

It had been a really weird but happy (?) kind of day for me today.

I was actually planning to kill myself this evening. And today was supposed to be my last day on Earth. But then, idk maybe God is showing me signs to live.

I woke up this morning feeling really anxious. I had planned out what to do for today, finish suicide note, delete all social media accts., clean my room (finally!) and all those stuff to prepare for my departure.

I heard my mom and my cousin downstairs talking about some serious matters, a problem with my other cousin and her husband, our financial […]

11/15/2015 1 comment

Strange medical condition – Social outcast

by witheringdaisies 11/13/2015

written by witheringdaisies

Hello. I’m 19 years old. Female. College student. Living with my mom. I just turned 19 last month. People always tell me that I’m young and I have a whole life ahead of me, and I have so much more to achieve. Well, that’s true, but how could I continue living with this weird sickness that causes everyone to avoid me?

It’s not the physical pain that kills me, it’s the emotional pain brought by it. To be honest, I’m embarrassed to even talk about it to my closest friends. I’ve been on this medical forum and realize there are others like me, and […]

11/13/2015 5 comments