If you’ve ever watched Rick and Morty there’s an episode about these Meeseeks which are kind of like a genie. they exist long enough to complete their task, and once they have completed it they just POOF! However, in this episode they are faced with a task to hard to complete meaning they are existing longer than normal and its very painful for them. they want to complete it as soon as possible so that they can “poof” and stop existing. Well I feel like a Meeseeks, I have existed too long and just want to vanish. living hurts, I don’t feel like I was […]
My life’s too busy, I did that on purpose so I’d be too busy to think, but I just want a day to do nothing, I’m so worn out….on the bright-side, I found $50 of the ground today! anyways i’m just so tired, and I’m really worried about my BF who is also suicidal, and he’s really over life right now, which really scares me, and I don’t know what to do. He sees a therapist, which is at least more than I do for myself. I don’t know how I could live if he ever died, and wanting to live is hard as it […]
taco bell bitches!!!! sorry im just really drunk and that makes me hungry.. and i dont have food here…and you guys are my friends now! this place needs an instant chat thing…okay goodnight! sweet dreams!
I find myself waiting for the crosswalk light to turn to go, watching all the speeding cars fly by. I like to stand as close to the edge as I can and just imagine the feeling of stepping out into traffic, and the feeling of the impact of the first car to hit me. the only thing holding me back is the possibility of some how surviving that…and all those people watching…me. I was told it only gets harder from here. Right now is harder than I can stand, just kill me now, I hate life.
Just wanted to let everyone know that I’m really thankful I found this place. I feel I can relate to a lot of other people here and it makes me feel a lot less alone. This is the one place where I don’t have to keep my secret and I can really be myself and no one will try to change that. I’m just appreciated and excepted. Thanks all!
So I’m the type of person who is super neat and clean and always does work before play. I’m really good about getting my homework etc. done ahead of time, and pretty much love to work really hard with everything I do and tend to be an overachiever. I have had a bad day or two every now or then where I just slack off because I’m not in the mood or my depression is just getting the best of me, but its never held be back like this before. my rooms a mess, I haven’t touched my homework in a week or so and […]
my thoughts are exhausting me and I don’t have the strength to function properly to get through this day. But I can’t skip this day either, I have an important dance showing I have to attend and I have to figure out how to get up enough courage to fake that I’m okay during the time I have to be around people. I’m already skipping two classes right now, and I had to leave half way through my dance class this morning because I couldn’t stop crying long enough to dance. I failed my Dance History exam and I’m starting to get really discouraged again, […]
I don’t wanna get up and go through the motions of my day, I just wanna sit here and cry. I don’t really have a reason to cry, which makes it even worse….I just cry because I’m me. I cant tell any of my friends about how I think about dying all the time, which makes me feel even more alone and hopeless. I don’t really want to get better, I kinda like to feel this way, I like being sick and don’t want help. I just want someone to cry with me.
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