well i jus got home and made my mom burst into tears within minutes of walking in the door. a disappointment. i am a worn and torn suitcase….i carry lies, drugs, sex, violence, and far worse with in me. no one want to own a worn and torn suitcase…they want the brand new ones. my whole family sees me as a fuck up. my dad doesn’t even tell me anything that will cheer me up anymore. i used to run to him and he always had my back….not anymore. this man doesnt believe in me, my mom ois in her room crying and i hope […]
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life is so fucking hard.but without life what is there? i mean could u imagine absolutely nothing. i mean nothing. no life no air no water or rain no heat no cold. i mean what happens when the world comes to an end? what will become of anything. i cant imagine. anyway to go off topic, what i realized about majority of these posts is us suicidals are smart as shyt. the shyt we write […]
okay so i met this guy who reassured me that he could add money to my bank account.he lied stole all the money from my account and in the end made my account negative. problem with that is my mom has a temper and get real mad real quick. she may throw me out because our account was joint. than she finds me a job at her place only to find out that i cant work there becuz of a recent drug test i failed….for that she is surely to throw me out. ill be jus that lucky if hse can throw me into ongoing […]
man here i am feeling fuckin worthless i just spent a hundred dollars on bullshyt cocaine. my nose is stuffed and i am broke..i would have never bought that shyt but ym best friend is ranting on how she wanted it and i did too. it makes me mad becuz i know if i wasnt with her i probably wouldnt have bought it. im weak. i let that shyt take over me.while i was doing it i was enjoying it, dont get me wrong. but now look at me. no money stuffy nose.im fuckin sad man. its been 3 months since i did that shyt […]
my mom is tryin to get me a job at her hospital….i mean i am greatful but she is giving me hell in the process and she wil continue to give me hell in the future. they drug tested me the other day and i smoke weed everyday….i didnt knw i was going to be drug testd and i had no choice but to pee. when she finds out she will maybe kick me out and thats when my suicidal thoughts will start to kick in….it fuckin sucks man. i hate this shyt. i used to be so happy and now im miserable. sex has […]
I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, SOMEONE HELP ME SEE
WHY A CRUMMY WASTE OF TIME MY LIFE HAS EVOLVED TO BE
I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN
WHY THEY CARE IF I LIVE OR DIE, WHAT WILL I HAVE TO GAIN
I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED, DONT RUN AWAY! COME BACK
BUT THEN I DISTINCTLY REMEMBER A TRUE FRIEND, MY LIFE LACKS
I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO THE GIRL THAT RAN AWAY
THE ONE WHO WAS SO FULL OF JOY WITH EVERY COMING DAY
THE ONE THAT ALWAYS ASKED QUESTIONS AND WANTED TO KNOW WHY
HAS BEEN REPLACED BY A SOLEMN GIRL WHO VOICE IS BURIED WITHIN […]
I GOT SO MANY PROBLEMS I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. SOMETIMES ILL SIT BACK AND THINK TO MYSELF IF I DIED MAYBE THEYLL BE SORRY. AND THEN I THINK DO I WANT TO DIE?DO I WANT MY LIFE TO END? AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPENS THAT MAKES ME WANT TO END IT ALL OVER AGAIN. THING ABOUT ME IM SCARED OF HELL AND I KNOW IF I KILL MYSELF NO MATTER WHO I WAS IM GOING TO HELL…BUT THEN AGAIN I SMOKE AND DRINK AND HAVE SEX AND DO ALL THESE THINGS THATS GONNA SEND ME TO HELL ANYWAY SO Y NOT…IM SO […]