rawrimaturtle..

i haven’t wrote in a while..

i started going to see my counsellor. its been making me feel a bit better. the other day i went bathing suit shopping… and I’m happy with the way my body looks for once!
i haven’t had school in a week. i go back monday. really don’t want to tho. I’ve been enjoying the amount of sleep I’ve been able to get. go to bed at 3:30am wake up at 12:30pm. its been nice.
i still hurt a lot! and i still find myself crying at night. tho not as much as i use to.

my counsellor suggested other things i […]

Is it weird that I badly want a kid right now and I’m
Only 14.
It’s like I need it!!!!!
I’ve wanted one for a while and yah I know having a kid now could “ruin” my life… I’ve been told… But I don’t agree!

-Morgan…..RawrImaTurtle!

  

I’ve done worse….

-Morgan…..RawrImaTurtle! 🙁

my heart still hurts so much! I’m in so much pain it feels like I’m screening and no body even cares, no body hears me.

I’ve been cutting again… And doing other forms of self harm. Like banging my hand against the bath tub repetedly stull it turns read. Or hitting myself in the head till I get a headache.

I’ve also been puking again (I’m bulimic) when I’m done my body trembles and I like it… The feeling makes me feel good..

I need a hug…. But it can’t be from just anyone. I want a hug! I haven’t hug someone in forever.

I still […]

…2 3 4 Raise a little hell , raise a little hell, raise a little hell!

Raise a little hell , raise a little hell, raise a little hell!

Raise a little hell , raise a little hell, raise a little hell!

Raise a little hell , raise a little hell, raise a little hell!

If you dont like what you got, why dont you change it?
If your world is all screwed up, then rearrange it?

Raise a little hell , raise a little hell, raise a little hell!

Raise a little hell , raise a little hell, raise a little hell!

If you dont like what you see, why […]

I don’t think I ever really did this so I’m going to now.

Hi my name is Morgan and I’m 14. I started getting depressed in grade 7 when my mom got cancer. (its gone now)
I don’t do drugs but I’m bulimic and I cut. I have nightmares that cause me to wake up crying.
My older sister beats on me. Yes it’s usually fun and games. But when she gets really ticked off she starts to threaten to kill me. When I was little I was scared so much that when she’d babysit me I’d phone my mom and bage her to come […]

I’m suck and tired of guys says I look like a dude! I hate it! I’m a girl! And I think I look like a girl.
So what is I wear baggy clothes and don’t wear low shirts so show everyone my boobs!
So I have my hair up to my shoulders! That doesn’t make me a guy!

Like seriously I’m sick of this! Can u just see that I’m a female!?

-Morgan

Why am I sensitive and emotionally unstable? To be honest I just don’t know..

Why am I bulimic? I want a body… Like what I see most girls have. I know it’s stupid… But it’s the truth. But I’m trying to stop. I only puke once a week usually now…

Why do I cut? I can explain it. If you cut then you’ll know why I do.

Why am I depressed? No idea. I’ve been depressed for 4months straight and I’m sick of it.

Why do I fall for guys easily? Also have no clue. I think it’s becuz I’ve watched to many movies and read to […]

Hi. My name is Morgan, i use this site often. I feel it helps. I’ve been depressed for about 4 months now. But today I was happy 🙂 it kinda comes and goes
I’m bulimic and I cut… I’ve only tried killing myself 2 times…. And I don’t want to die any more. But yet I don’t want to live….

-Morgan….RawrImaTurtle!

Hi everyone. Sorry I haven’t written in a while. Ive been lazy. But I’ve had a good day today 🙂 I’m happy. But I doubt that will last long. It never does.

Well I’ve realized. I need more friends who are like me. Like friends who get me and that I call tell them “I’m bulimic” or “I cut”… If u guys know how I can make friends like that let me know. Or if you want to be a friend like that. But I’d prefer you’d be around my age. So around 14. I think it might help me…

-Morgan…..RawrImaTurtle!

the reason i haven’t been eating properly is because I’m trying to lose weight, or become skinny… i weigh 117. and I’m 14 years old…i just want one of those “perfect” body’s that most girls i see have.

i used to weigh 120….

i know that 117 isn’t fat or heavy…. its just…. i hate my body!!

-Morgan…….RawrImaTurtle!..

…………part 1………………

i wake up to the sound of my phone vibrating. i crawl out of my nice warm bed built for two, tho sadly only one fills it every night.

i stare at my phone wonder who the hell would wake me up 1 hour before my alarm.
‘Good Morning Turtle <3’ i read. oh well its from johnny. so i’ll let it slide.
i text back ‘good morning nerd =P’ then go eat some breakfast.
i walked into the kitchen finding my favourite serial already on the table. but I’m home alone for a month, becuz my adoptive parents are on a little holliday.
i look around kinda freaking […]

I’ve decided to tell you guys all about my life… Even tho there are some things I regret and some things I’m not proud of. I need to get them off my chest and tell someone… So here is goes…

I was born on June 2.
My mother had to have a C-section becuz I was coming out feet first.

At about age 5 I started biting my nails (I now almost have none left)

When I started elementry school i wasn’t poplins or anything. I had a few friends and that’s all I needed..
In grade 4 me and this girl named Vanessa decided to become bffs. […]

i find im happiest when i read a good book, so i guess i should read all the time…

im also needing your opinion on something….. am i bipolar?

becuz like this morning… i woke up really happy and ready for the day… then my sister gave me attitude and my whole day was shitty in till i hour ago when i started reading….  and some people ask if I’m bipolar… but i don’t know if i am.. it just made me think… i don’t think i am.. but I’m not sure anymore.. so if you this i am or I’m not please let me know. i […]